Matthew’s nocturnal prowl around Sept-Tours had not lessened his restlessness or his anger. If anything, the cracks in his control had widened. Frustrated, he took a route back to his rooms that passed by the chateau’s keep and the chapel. Memorials to most of the departed de Clermonts were there— Philippe; Louisa; her twin brother, Louis; Godfrey; Hugh—as well as some of their children and beloved friends and servants.
“Good morning, Matthew.” The scent of saffron and bitter orange filled the air.
Fernando. After a long pause, Matthew forced himself to turn.
Usually the chapel’s ancient wooden door was closed, as only Matthew spent time there. Tonight it stood open in welcome, and the figure of a man was silhouetted against the warm candlelight inside.
“I hoped I might see you.” Fernando swept his arm wide in invitation.
Fernando watched as his brother-in-law made his way toward him, searching his features for the warning signs that Matthew was in trouble: the enlargement of his pupils, the ripple in his shoulders reminiscent of a wolf’s hackles, a roughness deep in his throat.
“Do I pass inspection?” Matthew asked, unable to keep the defensive note from his tone.
“You’ll do.” Fernando closed the door firmly behind them. “Barely.”
Matthew ran his fingers lightly along Philippe’s massive sarcophagus in the center of the chapel and moved restlessly around the chamber while Fernando’s deep brown eyes followed him.
“Congratulations on your marriage, Matthew,” Fernando said. “Though I haven’t met Diana yet, Sarah has told me so many stories about her that I feel we are very old friends.”
“I’m sorry, Fernando, it’s just—” Matthew began, his expression guilty.
Fernando stopped him with a raised hand. “There is no need for apology.”
“Thank you for taking care of Diana’s aunt,” Matthew said. “I know how difficult it is for you to be here.”
“The widow needed somebody to think of her pain first. Just as you did for me when Hugh died,”
Fernando said simply.
At Sept-Tours everybody from Gallowglass and the gardener to Victoire and Ysabeau referred to Sarah by her status relative to Emily rather than by her name, when she was not in the room. It was a title of respect as well as a constant reminder of Sarah’s loss.
“I must ask you, Matthew: Does Diana know about your blood rage?” Fernando kept his voice low.
The chapel walls were thick, and not much sound escaped, but it was wise to take precautions.
“Of course she knows.” Matthew dropped to his knees in front of a small pile of armor and weapons arranged in one of the chapel’s carved niches. The space was big enough to hold a coffin, but Hugh de Clermont had been burned at the stake, leaving no body to bury. Matthew had created a memorial to his favorite brother out of painted wood and metal instead: his shield, his gauntlets, his mail hauberk and coat of plates, his sword, his helm.
“Forgive me for insulting you with the suggestion that you would keep something so important from one you love.” Fernando boxed him on the ear. “I’m glad you told your wife, but you deserve a whipping for not telling Marcus or Hamish—or Sarah.”
“You’re welcome to try.” Matthew’s response carried a threat that would drive off any other member of his family—but not Fernando.
“You’d like a straightforward punishment, wouldn’t you? But you aren’t getting off so easy. Not this time.” Fernando knelt beside him.
There was a long silence while Fernando waited for Matthew to lower his guard.
“The blood rage. It’s gotten worse.” Matthew hung his head over his clasped hands in an attitude of prayer.