Khai pushed his brother’s hand away. “It’s just that flu that’s going around. Go back to New York. I’m fine.”
Shit, death anniversary. A cold sweat broke out over him, making his skin tingle as his heartbeat went erratic. He’d purposely blocked it from his mind because he hated those kinds of things, and this was the big one, the ten-year anniversary. There was going to be a ceremony, more monk chanting, and geysers of tears. His head throbbed on the verge of explosion.
“There isn’t a flu going around. It’s summertime.” Quan frowned and stuck his hand back on Khai’s forehead. “You don’t have a fever.”
“It’s in the pre-fever stages, then.” Khai mumbled the words because sound hurt now.
Quan sat down on the coffee table and searched his face like an astrologist reading the stars. When he shifted his position to get more comfortable, the water glass got in his way. He reached for it, but Khai stopped him.
“Don’t.”
Quan blinked and asked, “Why not?”
“I like it there.”
Quan stared at the water glass before fixing his eyes on Khai with a look of dawning understanding. “Holy shit, it’s hers, isn’t it? Do you know how cute that is?” Rubbing at his jaw, he added, “Also maybe a little emotionally unstable. You’re not being creepy, are you? Like stalking with binoculars and calling her at night to make sure she’s sleeping alone?”
“What? No.” But who the hell would she be sleeping with? If Quan meant another man, that was disturbing enough to warrant lengthy contemplation.
“Those weren’t suggestions,” Quan added. “Don’t do that.”
“I’m not being creepy,” Khai said in exasperation.
Quan nodded, and after a stilted moment, he dug his phone from his pocket and held it up like he was snapping a picture.
“What are you doing?” Khai asked.
“Sending a picture of your beard to Vy. You look kinda like Godfrey Gao right now.”
Khai rolled his eyes and scratched at his face. How long had it been since he’d shaved? He couldn’t remember. The past days were a mess of chaos in his mind.
“I’m not joking. Look at you,” Quan said, holding up his phone with the snapshot of Khai on it. As far as Khai was concerned, he looked less like a movie star and more like a drug addict, but what did he know?
Just then, message boxes from Vy flashed on the screen.
Oh momma.
Tell him to keep it.
Rawr.
Khai grimaced and rubbed at the back of his neck. “Not sure if I like my sister rawring at me.”
Quan laughed before his expression went serious. “Only Esme can, right?”
Khai thought that over for a few seconds before nodding once. Attraction, sex, lust, and wanting all orbited around one focal point for him. The focal point was Esme.
“I’ve been thinking about what you said at Michael’s wedding, about how you’re not in love, and I dunno. Maybe you’re not, but this …” Quan motioned at the open windows, the cup collecting dust on the table, and Khai’s couch-ridden form before resting his elbows on his knees and leaning toward him. “This is you being sad, Khai.”
He frowned at his brother. What bullshit was this? “I’m not sad. I have the flu.”
Quan stretched his head from side to side until his neck audibly popped. “You know you’ve been like this before, right? It’s a predictable pattern with you.”
“Yes, I’ve had the flu before.”