I’m honestly thankful right now just to have dry clothes on my back. Pat felt like the house was too dangerous to even go inside, so we took the dogs to Val’s, where I borrowed some clothes, and Pat changed into some extras he kept in his car. Val had a lot of questions, which I promised to answer later. I’ll probably need to figure out the answers first.
“You okay?” Pat asks, grinning as I lean my head on his shoulder. “Looks like you’re having a battle with my truck.”
“And losing. How much would it be to remove this console?”
Pat laughs. “Is this where we’re at, now? We’ve gone from you not wanting me to spend money on things for you to you requesting we trick out my vehicle?”
“You don’t have to change it. You could just buy a new one.”
I’m joking—mostly—and I hope Pat knows it. Maybe I need to make sure he knows. Otherwise he might show up tomorrow with a new vehicle. But he seems totally delighted by this new side of me, even if I’ve caught a few flashes of wariness in his eyes. Totally warranted considering my quick flip. And it is quick. I’ve gone from pumping the brakes on everything to going full throttle.
Right now, I am too overwhelmed to question the wisdom in this. My house is basically totaled, and tomorrow is the hearing. My life has all but imploded. Forgive me if I’m putting off all the mental gymnastics and self-examination I should probably be doing. I’m just going to enjoy the moment. Carpe diem and all that jazz. Except I’m choosing to have selective memory about my diem—ignoring the looming issues and seizing Pat’s mouth on mine whenever I can get it. He is a perfect distraction.
Speaking of—my perfect distraction pulls the car up in front of a building downtown and presses a quick kiss to my cheek. “If I’d planned this out, we’d have a dramatic reveal.”
“The last thing I need right now is more drama.”
Pat jogs around the front of the truck to open my door. I start to climb out, but he scoops me up like I weigh no more than a sheet of printer paper. I settle into his arms, wrapping mine around his neck.
“Planning to carry me over the threshold, husband?”
Pat freezes on the sidewalk, then tilts his head to study me. I expect a smile, but he’s gone all serious on me. “You’ve decided to break all the rules today, huh?”
“I thought you’d be thrilled,” I say lightly.
“Don’t get me wrong,” Pat says. “I am. You’re just going through a lot, and I don’t want to take advantage.”
“You aren’t taking advantage of me,” I protest.
“And I also don’t want to get my hopes up. I don’t want to push, but it would be helpful to know where things stand. Where I stand. If this is …”
He trails off, looking away. I cup his cheek, loving the bite of his stubble there. It’s already started to fill in from yesterday’s clean shave.
“I’d like to have that talk. But could we temporarily table the conversation?”
I can’t even say the word hearing right now, but Pat seems to understand me perfectly. Per the usual.
“Of course.” The concerned look slides off his face, replaced by a huge grin. “Get ready. You’re going to love this place.”
He fumbles with a set of keys, finally managing to open a door next to an empty storefront. Once inside, he starts up a creaky set of stairs. I press my cheek to his chest, not minding the bump of his collarbone against my forehead as he climbs. I kind of wish this was a taller building, as I’m enjoying the ride. It would make a fantastic addition to a theme park.
Not that I’d let anyone else have a turn. Nope! Private attraction. Special ticket-holders only.