I heard it again, the sound that had woken me: a far-off groan.
Alligator? Hog?
Or could it be the monster? I held still, listening, then reached for my digital recorder, mic, and headphones.
One of the benefits of staying in a van is that everything is within easy reach—you’re always only a step or two away from whatever you need. And I kept my recording equipment on a shelf right next to the bed.
I slipped on my headphones, flipped the mic and recorder on, held my breath, listening, hoping to catch the groan again. I pushed back the curtain and peered out the window at the starlit night.
I got out of bed, still holding the recording equipment and grabbing my headlamp and the little gun, just in case. I took the two steps to the side door, sliding it open and letting the moist air hit me. I stepped out into the night, walking toward the water. Cypress trees draped in Spanish moss stood out in the swamp like huge sentries wearing tattered, ghostly clothing. Frogs and crickets sang. Something splashed. The air smelled slightly rotten, primordial, like death and life all mixed up together. As I crept closer, a shadow moved along the edge; I held my breath, flipped on my headlamp, and spotted an alligator slipping into the brackish green water. He went under so that only his eyes were visible, watching me.
Eric would love this, I thought, locking eyes with the gator.
But Eric was halfway across the country.
Eric wasn’t even Eric anymore.
“Not Eric,” I said out loud without thinking, capturing the sound of my own voice on the recorder.
Idiot.
The alligator sank under and swam away.
We’d changed our names after what had happened. Eric became Charles （after his hero Charles Darwin）。 He didn’t grow up to be a naturalist, a veterinarian, or a zookeeper like we’d always thought he would. Charlie lived in Iowa and owned an auto dealership. He had thinning hair, a paunch, and high blood pressure （too much beer and fast food）， a daughter in college and another in high school. His wife was named Cricket （her real name, believe it or not） and they loved each other very much. They lived in a blue ranch house on a dead-end street where they knew all their neighbors and held potlucks and backyard barbecues. It made me uncomfortable to visit him there, as if I were visiting a sitcom set, but after all we’d gone through, my brother deserved safety and happiness. I was glad for Eric—no, Charles… I was always doing that, thinking of him by his old name. It suited him much better than Charlie, or even worse, Chuck, as Cricket sometimes called him, like he was a pile of ground meat or a furry animal that destroyed gardens.
The name I’d chosen for myself was Lizzy. I’d picked it because Gran’s middle name was Elizabeth and I felt I owed her that much, to carry some piece of her with me. I needed a last name too, and I chose Shelley, because, well, because of Mary Shelley, of course.
So I was Lizzy Shelley now. I was fifty-three years old, my hair going gray. And I made my living hunting monsters.
I had a blog and now a popular podcast, named for my long-ago childhood project: The Book of Monsters. I’d been a member of the team on last season’s series Monsters Among Us and featured in the documentary Shadow People. I’d given lectures at colleges on the role of the monster in contemporary society. I crisscrossed the country hunting Sasquatches, shapeshifters, lake monsters, cave-dwelling goblins, vampires, werewolves—all manner of cryptids and bogeymen. People posted on the forums on my website every day giving me leads, sending photos, telling their own stories of close encounters, begging me to come investigate. Between advertising, sponsors, affiliate links, the TV gigs, book royalties, and the branded merchandise I sold, I made more than enough to cover my expenses and hit the road as often as I liked, moving on to the next town, the next monster.
My mission was to do everything I could to get the message out loud and clear: Monsters are real and living among us.
But the Honey Island monster so far had not provided any proof of that. I worked my way along the edge of the water, listening to the sounds my microphone picked up, the chorus of the swamp: another splash, frogs croaking low, two owls calling plaintively back and forth, crickets rubbing their legs together in shrill song. So many creatures, such an alive place. Again I wished my brother—not the man he’d become, but the little boy he once was—were here to listen with me.