He swallowed thickly. “How come when I told myself the same thing a thousand times I didn’t believe me, but when you say it, it feels true?”
“Because I’m rarely wrong.”
“You did say romance was dead.”
I tilted my head, looking at his reflection in the mirror. “Aren’t you?”
He chuckled, and finally looked up again, and his eyes were a warm, melted ocher. Like in the dandelion field. “I don’t think this is what you meant,” he replied, his voice soft and gravelly, and I realized how badly I was burning up on the inside. I wanted him to touch me, to run his fingers across my skin. I wanted his face in the crook of my neck, his lips pressed against the freckled skin there. I wanted to fold myself into his sharp angles and stay there. Exist there. Because there—there I was sure I wouldn’t fall apart, I wouldn’t disassemble, I wouldn’t feel broken.
Not because I couldn’t exist on my own, but sometimes I just didn’t want to.
Sometimes I just wanted to let my guard down, let the pieces of me fall to the ground, and know that I had someone there who could put me back together without minding the sharp bits.
“Though dead is what you make of it,” he mumbled, his dark gaze almost feverish, if he weren’t so polite. “There are so many things we can do. We can talk books, we can wax about the romantics—Lord Byron and Keats and Shelley—”
“Mary or Percy?”
“Mary, obviously.”
“The only choice,” I agreed.
He laughed. “And I want to complain about all the youths and their TikToks and sit on park benches together making up stories and go for walks in graveyards at midnight.”
“I feel like we’ve done a few of these . . .”
“But I could never touch you.”
“I’d be okay with that.”
“No one else will ever see me.”
“That means you’d be all mine.”
He sighed and sat back on the edge of the bed. Morning sunlight slanted in such a way, it carved a stark golden shine across him. “That sounds awfully similar to the plot of The Forever House.”
“One of Ann’s best.”
“And it’s the only one without a happily ever after.”
I gave him a strange look. “What do you mean?” I asked as I gathered up my clothes and went into the bathroom to change. I left the door cracked. “They got together in the end!”
“You think so?”
“Of course. She moves into the house and then the doorbell rings. Of course it’s him.”
“Come back from the dead?”
“Stranger things happened in that novel,” I pointed out, and through the crack in the door I watched him think back on the time travel and the maybe–maybe not werewolf neighbor.
Finally, he said, “Fair. How’d you come to start ghostwriting for Annie?”
“Why do you keep calling her Annie?” I shimmied into my hose—the knee-highs weren’t going to cut it—and tucked my white blouse into the skirt.
“A habit, I guess,” he replied in that aloof way that very much sounded like bullshit, but I didn’t press it. Maybe it was a weird editor thing. “Did she contact you?”
“No, actually. Well, sort of. I met her in a coffee shop about five years ago. You know, the one on Eighty-Fifth and Park?”
“Oh, they’ve got great scones.”