She catches my hesitancy and flips open another brochure, spinning it toward me. “Or, if you’re more of a beach person?”
I soak up the two-page spread of warm sand and jade waters. “Yeah. I think I am,” I say, hopefully.
Ten minutes later I leave the stand with an information pack and a penciled booking for the private Bahamian island of Bone Fish Cay, private jet flights and island chef included, still a little unsure how it happened or why. And all of this for the price of an Instagram post or two—I feel a stab of guilt at the excess of it all but quickly remind myself that the point of booking a holiday in the first place was to take my mind off things and try to relax.
I find Bee deep in conversation at the Burberry concession, a small red Cartier gift bag and a large Gucci one swinging from her tiny wrist. After another hour of perusing and nabbing, we call it a day, wandering back out into the California sunlight bag-laden with our hauls.
Back in the car after our goodbyes I start the engine and think about getting back to work on the script. It’s only when I look at the GPS that I realize how close I am to the 101.
Emily’s house. Curiosity, like creeping ivy, wraps itself around the idea as it forms. I zoom in on the GPS map. Perhaps I could just drive past, check if her car is there. Perhaps I did see her here earlier, that flash of chestnut hair disappearing into another room; maybe she saw me and left and went home? Who knows. But I’m so close to her apartment, it can’t hurt to swing by, I might even see her from the street. A quick look at her place can’t hurt. I tap the address into the satnav and it tells me the building is only twenty minutes away. I tap start journey and roll out onto the open road.
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My heart starts to flutter as the satnav destination dot draws closer. I’m suddenly not sure what it is I’m trying to achieve here. The police said everything was fine. But I suppose that’s the problem, I don’t trust that they knew what they were looking for. If I can just see Emily’s face for myself, I’ll know. If I can be sure it’s not the woman who came to my apartment the other night, then I can put the whole thing to rest.
When I take a left onto her street, I slow. There’s on-street parking both sides of the mainly residential avenue, cars tightly parked bumper-to-bumper. According to the satnav, Emily’s building is at the end of the street. I keep my eyes peeled for the bright white of her Chevrolet rental as I approach but there’s nothing, no white cars sticking out among the silver and black Priuses and Hondas. Her building comes into view on my right, a two-story 1960s prefab with a concrete staircase leading up to the entrance. The building is dwarfed by high-rise apartment blocks looming on either side so that it appears to stand alone, an innocent relic of simpler times in a sea of architectural brutalism. The building’s entrance is obscured by an overhanging tree and remains a mystery as I sail past. If I can’t even see the entrance, how am I going to see her face? I realize I need an actual plan, or I’m just a lonely tourist driving around pointlessly.
I pull off the avenue and start to loop back around for another pass when I see the PARK HERE sign, painted massive and garish onto the side of a strangely geometric 1960s building.
LAST
CAPPUCCINO
BEFORE THE 101
PARK HERE
Without a second thought I swing the car into the car park and find a space. This is ridiculous. I’m not achieving anything by slinking around her neighborhood like a creep. I turn off the engine and consider my options. I flip up the armrest and stare down at the neatly folded rental document. I’ve certainly got an excuse to pay her a visit. I take it out and straighten it, some of the carbon-copy dust coming off on my fingers.
Or I could just go back to my apartment and forget about the whole thing. But what are the chances I’m going to forget about what happened the other night? I’m the only person who knows that Emily disappeared, and I’m the only person who knows she never came to collect her things. I need some kind of closure on this. I need to focus over the next few days, I can’t be wondering what happened to Emily. Either she’s fine or she’s not, and if she’s not then I report a bigger crime than auto theft to Officer Cortez. I report it and leave it to someone else.