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KA-BLAM!
Roland opens his eyes on a billion stars wheeling through the blackness, then closes them again.
He doesn’t know what’s going on but he thinks everything’s okay. The deck’s still moving, the cards still
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More of the sweet, tasty chunks of meat. He feels better. Eddie looks better, too. But he also looks worried.
“They’re getting closer,” he says. “They may be ugly, but they ain’t completely stupid. They know what I been doing. Somehow they know, and they don’t dig it. Every night they get a little closer. It might be smart to move on when daybreak comes, if you can. Or it might be the last daybreak we ever see.”
“What?” This is not exactly a whisper but a husk somewhere between a whisper and real speech.
“Them,” Eddie says, and gestures toward the beach. “Dad-a-chack, dum-a-chum, and all that shit. I think they’re like us, Roland—all for eating, but not too big on getting eaten.”
Suddenly, in an utter blast of horror, Roland realizes what the whitish-pink chunks of meat Eddie has been feeding him have been. He cannot speak; revulsion robs him of what little voice he has managed to get back. But Eddie sees everything he wants to say on his face.
“What did you think I was doing?” he nearly snarls. “Calling Red Lobster for take-out?”
“They’re poison,” Roland whispers. “That’s why—”
“Yeah, that’s why you’re hors de combat. What I’m trying to keep from you being, Roland my friend, is hors d’oeuvres as well. As far as poison goes, rattlesnakes are poison, but people eat them. Rattlesnake tastes real good. Like chicken. I read that somewhere. They looked like lobsters to me, so I decided to take a chance. What else were we gonna eat? Dirt? I shot one of the fuckers and cooked the living Christ out of it. There wasn’t anything else. And actually, they taste pretty good. I been shooting one a night just after the sun starts to go down. They’re not real lively until it gets completely dark. I never saw you turning the stuff down.”
Eddie smiles.
“I like to think maybe I got one of the ones that ate Jack. I like to think I’m eating that dink. It, like, eases my mind, you know?”
“One of them ate part of me, too,” the gunslinger husks out. “Two fingers, one toe.”
“That’s also cool,” Eddie keeps smiling. His face is pallid, sharklike . . . but some of that ill look has gone now, and the smell of shit and death which has hung around him like a shroud seems to be going away.
“Fuck yourself,” the gunslinger husks.
“Roland shows a flash of spirit!” Eddie cries. “Maybe you ain’t gonna die after all! Dahling! I think that’s mah-vellous!”
“Live,” Roland says. The husk has become a whisper again. The fishhooks are returning to his throat.
“Yeah?” Eddie looks at him, then nods and answers his own question. “Yeah. I think you mean to. Once I thought you were going and once I thought you were gone. Now it looks like you’re going to get better. The antibiotics are helping, I guess, but mostly I think you’re hauling yourself up. What for? Why the fuck do you keep trying so hard to keep alive on this scuzzy beach?”
Tower, he mouths, because now he can’t even manage a husk.
“You and your fucking Tower,” Eddie says, starts to turn away, and then turns back, surprised, as Roland’s hand clamps on his arm like a manacle.
They look into each other’s eyes and Eddie says, “All right. All right!”
North, the gunslinger mouths. North, I told you. Has he told him that? He thinks so, but it’s lost. Lost in the shuffle.