The Family Game by Catherine Steadman
I dedicate this book to my readers, with thanks and huge gratitude.
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
—JOSEPHINE HART, Damage
Our most basic instinct is not for survival, but for family.
—PAUL PEARSALL, neuropsychologist
Prologue
25 December
I come to on the parquet floor of the entrance hall, my face pressed hard against its antique wood, with the clear knowledge that this is not how Christmases should go.
Around me the Gothic grandeur of The Hydes slides back into focus. The Holbecks’ family seat, everything multiple generations of wealth and power can buy you; this imposing Hungarian castle ripped brick by brick from the Mecsek Mountains, packed, shipped and grafted into upstate New York soil. Their ancestral home a literal castle in the sky dragged to ground and anchored into the American landscape and its psyche. A testament to sheer bloody-mindedness and cold hard cash.
In the 1800s a Holbeck bride wanted her beau to ‘lasso the moon,’ and here’s the solid proof he did. He made a dream real. Some might say: more money than sense, maybe, but from down here, bleeding on their floor, even I have to admit this place is beautiful. And who, in love, doesn’t hope for a lassoed moon? After all, that’s what love is, isn’t it?
Across from me the front door stands ajar, so close and yet so, so far. A crisp winter breeze tickling my face as I watch snowflakes float peaceably through the air outside, freedom just beyond my reach. Past that doorway the grounds roll out in all their splendour, snow-blanketed ornamental gardens, an ice-crusted boating lake, crystalline lawns that finally give way to miles of thickly packed Holbeck woodland. And at the limits of that moonlit forest a fifteen-foot-high perimeter wall, encircling us, separating the Holbeck family from the rest of the world. A sovereign state, an enclave, a compound with its own rules and self-regulating systems.
I have been found lacking, by one, or all. And steps are in motion. I might not survive the night.
If I could stand right now, if I could run, and scale the perimeter wall, the nearest town would still be over an hour on foot. If I had my phone, I could call the police. But given who I am, who they are, I can’t be sure the way things would go when they got here. There is a way to read any story and I might have found myself with a slight credibility problem.
A girl with a past tries to marry into money and all hell breaks loose. We all know how that story ends.
It’s funny: in-laws are supposed to be problematic, aren’t they? That old cultural stereotype. I guess it’s funny because it’s often true. In-laws can be difficult. Families can be difficult. And I can’t argue with the facts, here, bleeding on their floor.
I carefully ease up onto my forearms, the dark stone of my engagement ring shifting moodily in the light. A sleeping creature woken.
If I could go back now, to the day he proposed, would I do things differently? That is the billion-dollar question.
My temple throbs as I carefully wipe blood from my eyelashes.
They say head wounds seem more serious than they are because they bleed so much. They say the human body can do incredible things in a crisis. People walked for miles to hospitals on broken legs after 9/11, women give birth in war zones, new mothers lift cars to save their children. I hope that’s true.
Twenty years ago, I almost died. I hung in silence, death all around me, but somehow, I survived. And if I could survive that, I can survive this, because since you showed up, I have so much more to lose, and so, so much more to gain.
We’re going to survive this, you and I. They say you can’t choose your family but they’re wrong. You can. It just takes way more effort than most people are willing to put in.
And with that thought in mind, I slowly push up and stumble to my feet.