Edward takes my hand in his, and I drag my eyes from the glowing windows high above us in time to catch his expression. He’s grinning at me. He’s clearly enjoying the effect that the 57 million dollars’ worth of real estate is having on me. I give his hand a firm squeeze; I’m going to need a little help tonight. Help is something that I’m slowly learning to ask for, and thankfully he responds on cue.
‘It’s just a house,’ he tells me, pulling me close. ‘Everyone gets nervous meeting their in-laws.’
‘But this isn’t quite the same, is it?’ I reply.
‘No,’ he smirks, following my gaze back to the warmly lit penthouse windows. Then he looks back down to me, pushing a strand of loose hair behind my ear and kissing me lightly on the lips. It’s a promise. A reminder of why we’re here.
I close my eyes and let the feel of him, so close, so real, clear my head. We are here tonight because he gave me a ring, because I will become a part of this family.
Beginnings are always hard – almost as hard as endings, I remind myself.
From behind the gold and glass of the building’s entrance, a doorman in off-black livery appears. He holds open the door with a silent professionalism that does nothing to put me at ease.
Inside, a marble lobby and a buttonless elevator activated by the doorman’s magnetic card.
As we travel up to the Holbeck’s penthouse triplex I try to imagine what it must have been like to grow up with all this, the Guggenheim next door. ‘Did you spend much time here as a kid?’ I ask Edward over the gentle hum of the elevator. I can’t really imagine a tiny flush-faced Edward dashing around this place in the ’90s Tommy Hilfiger sweatshirt I’ve seen in his childhood photos.
‘No, not really. Dad stayed here in the week, for work. Mother went between here and home. We were always either at school or at The Hydes.’
The Hydes. The Holbeck family home in upstate New York. I can only speculate, along with the rest of the world, on what Edward’s family house looks like inside. There are no pictures online, only paparazzi shots of the gates surrounded by dense woodland and a high perimeter security fence. Its interiors have never been photographed for a magazine or an architectural supplement and it hasn’t been on the market since J. L. Holbeck built it in the late 1800s. Edward has mentioned it and clammed up when pressed on it. The place remains a mystery, and while I try not to press him on it, each new crumb of knowledge slowly builds a picture of something more than I dare to think about right now.
He squeezes my hand as the lift slows. ‘You doing okay?’
I nod and attempt a smile then watch as he straightens his collar in infinite reflections in the elevator mirrors. He’s nervous too, I can tell, though he’s hiding it well. That tightness around his strong jaw I’ve noticed during work calls, the same tightness the evening of our first official date – an almost imperceptible tell that I’ve picked up on over time an oddly comforting glimpse at his human vulnerability beneath. This matters to him, a lot.
I tuck my errant strand of hair back into my loose chignon. Under my coat I’m wearing a dark red jumpsuit, to match Great-Grandma Mitzi’s ring. I wonder if Edward’s mother will notice the gesture.
The lift pings and glides open to reveal a Carrera marble atrium, a sculptural glass chandelier glistening high above us. There isn’t a Thanksgiving pumpkin or turkey decoration in sight.
Edward leads me from the elevator, our shoes tapping on marble, the quiet murmur of voices and music drifting to us from somewhere deep within the apartment. I try to quell the sudden surge of fear and nausea rising up inside me; I need to stay calm. But when a man in grey suddenly appears from a doorway to our left, I literally jump.
‘Mr Holbeck, Ms Reed,’ he murmurs, sotto voce, giving a muted apologetic smile. He’s British. A British butler. Of course they have a British butler. I’m going to sound like the help, aren’t I? I squeeze Edward’s hand as our guide gestures for us to continue on down the corridor. ‘The family are just taking drinks in the drawing room.’