Like she knows I’m watching.
Like she’s certain of it.
I slide deeper into the rocking chair. Again, ridiculous.
She can’t see me.
Of course she can’t.
If anything, I suspect she’s watching her husband’s reflection in the glass. On the edge of the couch, he slumps forward, head in his hands. He looks up, seemingly pleading with her. His gestures are desperate, almost frantic. By focusing on his lips, I can almost make out what he’s saying.
How? Or maybe Who?
Katherine doesn’t reply. At least not that I can see. Away from the couch and backlit by the lamp, the front of her is cast in shadow. She’s not moving, though. That much I can tell. She stands mannequin-like in front of the window, arms at her sides.
Behind her, Tom rises from the couch. The pleading morphs into shouting again as he takes a halting step toward her. When Katherine refuses to respond, he grabs her arm and jerks her away from the glass.
For a second, her gaze stays fixed on the window, even as the rest of her is being pulled away from it.
That’s when our eyes lock.
Somehow.
Even though she can’t see me and my eyes are hidden behind binoculars and we’re a quarter mile apart, our gazes find each other.
Just for a moment.
But in that tiny slice of time, I can see the fear and confusion in her eyes.
Less than a second later, Katherine’s head turns with the rest of her body. She whirls around to face her husband, who continues to drag her toward the couch. Her free arm rises, fingers curling into a fist that, once formed, connects with Tom’s jaw.
The blow is hard.
So hard I think I hear it from the other side of the lake, although more likely the sound is me letting out a half gasp of shock.
Tom, looking more surprised than hurt, releases Katherine’s arm and stumbles backwards onto the couch. She seems to say something. Finally. No yelling from her. No pleading, either. Just a sentence uttered with what looks like commanding calmness.
She leaves the room. Tom remains.
I nudge the binoculars upward to the second floor, which remains dark. If that’s where Katherine went, I can’t see her.
I return my gaze to the living room, where Tom has pulled himself back onto the sofa. Watching him hunched forward, head in his hands, makes me think I should call the police and report a domestic dispute.
While I can’t begin to know the context of what I saw, there’s no mistake that some form of spousal abuse occurred. Although Katherine was the one to strike, it was only after Tom had grabbed her. And when our eyes briefly locked, it wasn’t malice or vengeance I saw.
It was fear.
Obvious, all-consuming fear.
In my mind, Tom had it coming.
It makes me wonder how many times something like this has happened before.
It makes me worry it’ll happen again.
The only thing I’m certain of is that I regret ever picking up these binoculars and watching the Royces. I knew it was wrong. Just like I knew that if I kept watching, I was eventually going to see something I didn’t want to see.
Because I wasn’t spying on just one person.
I was watching a married couple, which is far more complex and unwieldy.
What is marriage but a series of mutual deceptions?
That’s a line from Shred of Doubt. Before I was fired, I spoke it eight times a week, always getting an uneasy laugh from audience members who recognized the truth behind it. No marriage is completely honest. Each one is built on some type of deception, even if it’s something small and harmless. The husband pretending to like the sofa his wife picked out. The wife who watches her husband’s favorite show even though she quietly despises it.
And sometimes it’s bigger.
Cheating. Addiction. Secrets.
Those can’t stay hidden forever. At some point, the truth comes out and all those carefully arranged deceptions topple like dominoes. Is that what I just saw in the Royce house? A marriage under pressure finally imploding?
In the living room, Tom stands and crosses to the sideboard bar. He grabs a bottle of honey-colored liquid and splashes some into a glass.
Above him, a light goes on in the master bedroom, revealing Katherine moving behind the gauzy curtains. I grab my phone when I see her, not thinking about what I’ll say. I simply call.
Katherine answers with a hushed, husky “Hello?”
“It’s Casey,” I say. “Is everything okay over there?”
There’s nothing on Katherine’s end. Not a breath. Not a rustle. Just a blip of silence before she says, “Why wouldn’t things be okay?”