As long as she could hide out in the Frick mansion, she’d be safe.
Chapter Five
1966
Upstairs in her makeshift dressing room, Veronica dumped the contents of her purse out on the bureau, grabbed some tissues, and wiped at her face, the eyeliner leaving behind bruise-like smudges. She was out of her element in this grand house, with models and a crew who were experienced and savvy, and hoped she wouldn’t be fired before they gave her a chance to try again and show that she could pose and preen like the others. Prove that she wasn’t a freak, which was exactly what she looked like right now. An overly lacquered freak with a mushroom on her head.
Sabrina had warned her that the fashion industry was a fickle one. One day you were considered a hot commodity; the next, you were worse than nobody. Barnaby had probably forgotten all about how she’d impressed him at her go-see, why she was hired in the first place. But she had to move beyond her fears and worries about what everyone was thinking or saying about her. It was her job to fold herself into whatever the shoot required, and she’d do so. As soon as she fixed her face.
“Are you all right?”
Tangerine peeked her head in the door.
Veronica nodded, moved by the sympathetic look on Tangerine’s face. She had one friend here, at least.
Tangerine led Veronica into the bathroom and stood next to her in front of the mirror. “Don’t let Barnaby push you around. He’s all bark, I promise.”
“I’m embarrassed,” admitted Veronica. “This is my first really big shoot. I mean, it’s Vogue.”
“Good for you, then. It took me three years to make it to this level. Don’t beat yourself up.”
“Thanks.” Veronica picked up a thick makeup brush then paused, nervous that she’d do something wrong again.
Tangerine took it from her. “Let me.”
With a quiet assurance, Tangerine sat Veronica on the edge of the claw-footed bathtub and began putting Veronica’s face back together. Her hair smelled like lavender, and Veronica relaxed, relieved that someone else was in charge. She glanced in the mirror every so often, noting the techniques Tangerine used for future shoots.
“Look down at the floor,” instructed Tangerine, as she drew on a thin line of black eyeliner.
“Your shoes are smashing,” said Veronica. In sharp contrast to her own cheap black pumps, Tangerine wore bright pink heels with a delicate pearl accent on the toe.
“Dior. Nice, right?” She stepped back and studied her work, tapping one toe. “Can I tell you a secret?”
“Sure.”
“I stole them after a photo shoot for the House of Dior’s 1965 line.”
“What?”
“Everyone does it. I mean, look at all of the clothes and things they’re tossing around during the shoots. They never keep track, and it’s a way to earn a little pocket money on the side. Either you keep it for yourself, or sell it at a consignment shop. Super easy. We only have a limited shelf life as models, so we might as well make the best of it. Especially with the beastly way they treat us half the time.”
Veronica didn’t think she’d have the nerve to take anything. But after being on the receiving end of Barnaby’s snark, she understood the impulse.
She looked at herself in the mirror. While she still wore eyeliner and false eyelashes, her mouth and cheeks were more subdued. “It’s perfect.”
“The focus is where it should be, on your eyes,” said Tangerine. “God, I love your hair so much. Did Vidal do it?”
Veronica put a hand to her hair. Why admit it was all a mistake? “Yes.”
She was learning.
“You’re so good at this, Tangerine.” Veronica wasn’t ready to relinquish the thin thread of kindness that had come her way just yet. “How did you figure it all out?”
“My older sister. She’s way prettier than I am, but went off and got married instead of working. She taught me the tricks of a perfect cat-eye from an early age. You just needed a sister.”
“I have a sister. A twin.”
“How fabulous. They should do a shoot with the two of you! Now, that would make waves.”
Veronica nodded as Tangerine took a can of hair spray and molded her hair into a shellacked helmet. Polly would never be in a photo shoot. They might be twins, but no one had ever viewed them as a matched set, even when they were both young children. While Veronica had emerged into the world unscathed, Polly had been deprived of oxygen for too long. Although she understood what was said and communicated with a series of gestures and sounds, she didn’t speak. Only Veronica and their parents understood her. To the outside world, she was something to be stared at, a girl with an odd, twitchy walk and a mouth that hung open. Big brown eyes that avoided one’s gaze.