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The Measure(14)

Author:Nikki Erlick

And Nina was forced to helplessly watch Maura suffer, because nothing could be done. Any semblance of control had been ripped from them both.

Nina felt powerless, like she was reliving one of the worst days of her life, back in senior year of high school. She had spent an hour, that morning, with the school’s guidance counselor, seeking advice on coming out to her friends, unaware that a catty classmate had been eavesdropping through the door, and by the time that Nina had left the office, she didn’t need to worry about finding the right moment to share. The truth was already out.

Even now, as an adult, Nina could still see the gym’s locker room: the curious glances, the subtle nods, the embarrassed whispers. For someone who refused to let even one sentence be printed in the school newspaper without her explicit editorial sign-off, she had entered a new circle of hell. Nina’s meticulous planning, her weeks of internal debate, everything was scrapped in an instant. All her power, her control, had been stolen away. She had only intended to tell a handful of friends, but word quickly slipped across multiple grades.

Of course, two days later, her news had been eclipsed when half the soccer team was suspended for smoking pot behind the field, and hardly anyone could remember the gossip from before. Except for Nina.

She would always remember.

More than a decade later, living in the apartment she rented with Maura, Nina could still feel the anger and humiliation, could still recall vowing to protect herself from any other agony, from ever losing control again.

Amie and Maura often asked her to be less controlling. To loosen up. To let it go.

But Nina couldn’t let go. Not when she lived in a world of betrayal and heartache, of mysterious boxes and painfully short strings.

If Nina let go, then whatever it was that she was trying to protect—her younger self, her future with Maura—would be left unarmed and vulnerable. Out of her control.

The boxes were now a part of her life, Nina couldn’t change that. But she was determined to regain a sense of power and clarity. And so, in the wee hours when she couldn’t sleep, or when Maura was away from their apartment, Nina found herself scouring the Internet for answers.

What had started as a simple Google search—Where did the boxes come from?—quickly unspooled, after Nina clicked over to Reddit and landed in the middle of a popular new subreddit, r/Strings. She instantly realized there were hundreds of ongoing discussions, all attempting to decipher the mystery of the boxes.

Normally Nina was too private a person, too self-disciplined, to enjoy the public abandon of most social media, but she surprised herself with how easily she could slip into the conversations and suddenly lose two hours online.

Nina landed on one photo posted by gordoncoop531957 of a box illuminated under UV light, fingerprints glowing on the outer casing. “Proof,” the photo was captioned.

Posted by u/Matty 1 hour ago

Proof of wut? That ur an idiot?

Posted by u/TheWatcher 1 hour ago

Definitely extraterrestrial. It’s why the prints are invisible to the naked eye.

Posted by u/NJbro44 2 hours ago

Dude those are probably ur own fingers.

Another user, offdagrid774, posted a picture of his box being kept inside a microwave, urging everyone to do the same: “Don’t let the NSA listen to you!”

Posted by u/ANH 1 day ago

Ur right, the boxes are def bugged. The gov spying not just on Americans but the whole world!! How else would they have ur name and address? Keep it out of ur house!!

Posted by u/Fran_M 1 day ago

Offdagrid774, do you think there’s a camera inside, too?

The religious contingent occupied a smaller corner online, though equally vocal. A Bible verse, shared by RedVelvet_Mama, had recently gone viral as an alleged testament to the boxes’ divine provenance.

“Do not judge, so that you may not be judged. For with the judgment you make you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get.” —Matthew 7

Nina didn’t believe anything she read, it was all just conjecture. But it was comforting to know that there were thousands of people, millions even, who were just as unnerved as she was, and just as interested in finding the truth, if such a thing even existed.

On Sunday evening, when Maura was at her support group, Nina thought about the man in Verona, and what her coworker had said. It was an unsettling thought that someone was essentially immune to dying until they reached the end of their string—especially strange for those, like Nina, with long ones.

Sitting in bed, Nina pulled out her laptop and searched “long string + death” to see if anything might come up.

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