And then I hear Ben’s voice at a distance, quiet but still much clearer than what had been only a mumble before: “What are you doing here?” A long pause. Then he says: “What the fuck . . . ?”
Next there’s a sound: a groan. Even at this volume it’s difficult to tell if it’s a person making the sound or something else—a floorboard creaking? Then: silence.
I feel even colder than I did before. I find myself taking hold of my necklace, reaching for the pendant, gripping it hard.
Theo plays the recording again. And finally a third time. Here it is. Here’s the proof. Someone was there in the apartment with Ben, the night he left this voicenote.
We each remove an earbud. Look at each other.
“Yeah,” Theo says. “I’d say that’s a little fucking weird.”
Mimi
Fourth floor
She’s not in the apartment right now. I know because I’ve been watching from my bedroom window. All the lights are off on the third floor, the room in darkness. But for a moment I actually think I see him; appearing out of the shadows. Then I blink and of course there’s no one there.
But it would be like him. He had this habit of showing up unannounced. Just like he did the second time I met him.
I’d stopped by this old vinyl store on my way back from the Sorbonne: Pêle-Mêle. It was so hot. We have this expression in French, soleil de plomb, for when the sun feels as heavy as lead. That was what it was like that day—hard to imagine now, when it’s so cold out. It was horrible: exhaust fumes and sweaty sunburnt tourists crammed together on the pavements. I always hate the tourists but I hate them most of all in the summer. Bumbling around, hot and angry that they came to the city rather than the beach. But there were no tourists in the store because it looks so gloomy and depressing from the outside, which is exactly why I like it. It was dark and cool, like being underwater, the sounds from outside muted. I could spend hours in there in my own little bubble, hiding from the world, floating between the stacks of vinyl and listening to record after record in the scratched glass booth.
“Hey.”
I turned around.
There he was. The guy who’d just moved in on the third floor. I saw him most days, wheeling his Vespa across the courtyard or sometimes moving around in his apartment: he always left the shutters open. But close up, it was different. I could see the stubble on his jaw, the coppery hairs on his arms. I could see he wore a chain around his neck, disappearing beneath the neckline of his T-shirt. I wouldn’t have expected that, somehow: he seemed too preppy. Up close I could catch the tang of his sweat, which sounds kind of gross—but it was a clean peppery smell, not the fried onion stink you get on the Metro. He was kind of old, like I’d said to Camille. But he was also kind of beautiful. Actually, he took my breath away.
“It’s Merveille, isn’t it?”
I nearly dropped the record I was holding. He knew my name. He’d remembered. And somehow, even though I hate my name, on his lips it sounded different, almost special. I nodded, because I didn’t feel like I could speak. My mouth tasted of metal; maybe I’d bitten my tongue. I imagined the blood pooling between my teeth. In the silence I could hear the ceiling fan, whoomp, whoomp, whoomp, like a heartbeat.
Finally, I managed to speak. “M—most people call me Mimi.”
“Mimi. Suits you. I’m Ben.” His English accent; the bluntness of it. “We’re neighbors: I moved into the apartment on the third floor, a few days ago.”
“Je sais,” I said. It came out like a whisper. I know. It seemed crazy that he thought I might not know.
“It’s such a cool building. You must love living there.” I shrugged. “All that history. All those amazing features: the cave, the elevator—”
“There’s a dumbwaiter, too.” I blurted it out. It’s one of my favorite things in the building. I wasn’t sure why, but I suddenly wanted to share it with him.
He leaned forward. “A dumbwaiter?” He looked so excited; I felt a warm glow that I’d been the cause of it. “Really?”
“Yeah. From back when the building was a proper h?tel particulier—it belonged to this countess or something and there was a kitchen down in the cave. They’d send food and drink up in it and the laundry would come back down.”
“That’s amazing! I’ve never actually seen one of those in real life. Where? No, wait—don’t tell me. I’m going to try and find it.” He grinned. I realized I was smiling back.