I flip through the rest of the notebook, hoping to discover more, only to find it’s blank after this. But this does tell me something. There is something strange going on with the people in this building. Ben was keeping notes about them.
I drink more of Ben’s wine, waiting for it to take the edge off my nerves but it doesn’t seem to be helping. It only starts to make me feel groggy. I put the wine glass down because I have an urge to stay awake, to keep watch, to keep thinking. I don’t want to fall asleep here. Suddenly it doesn’t feel safe.
When my eyes start closing of their own accord I realize I don’t have a choice. I have to sleep. I need the energy to keep going. I drag myself into the bedroom and fall onto the bed. I know I can’t do any more today, not while I’m this knackered. But as I turn out the light I realize that a whole day has now passed without word from my brother and the feeling of dread grows.
My eyes snap open. It feels like no time has passed, but the neon numbers on Ben’s alarm clock read: 3:00. Something woke me. I know it, even if I’m not sure what. Could it have been the cat, knocking something over? But no, it’s here at the end of the bed, I can feel the weight of its body against my feet and, as my eyes adjust to the dark, I can make it out more clearly in the green glow of the alarm clock. It’s sitting up, alert, ears pricked and twitching like radars trying to catch a signal. It’s listening to something.
And then I hear it. A creak, the sound of a floorboard giving under someone’s foot. Someone’s here, in the apartment with me, just the other side of the French doors.
But . . . could it be Ben? I open my mouth to call out. Then I hesitate. Remember the voicenote. There’s no light beneath the French doors: my visitor is moving around in the dark. Ben would have switched on the lights by now.
Suddenly I’m wide awake. More than awake: wired. My breathing sounds too loud in the silence. I try to calm it, make it as quiet as possible. I close my eyes and fake sleep, lying as still as I can. Has someone broken in? Wouldn’t I have heard the glass shattering, the door splintering?
I wait, listening to every tiny creak of the footsteps making their way around the room. It doesn’t feel as though they’re in any particular rush. I pull the throw up so I’m almost completely covered by it. And then, through the thundering of my own blood in my ears, I hear the doors to the bedroom begin to open.
My chest is so tight it’s hard to breathe. My heart is jumping against my ribs. I’m still pretending to sleep. But at the same time I’m thinking about the lamp next to the bed, the metal base nice and heavy. I could snatch out an arm—
I wait, head pressed against the pillow, trying to decide whether to grab for the lamp now or—
But . . . now I hear the soft pad of footsteps retreating. I hear the French doors closing. And then, a few moments later, further away, the groan of the main door to the apartment opening and shutting.
They’ve gone.
I lie still for a moment, my breathing coming in rough pants. Then I jump up, push through the French doors and run out into the main room. If I move quickly, I might catch them. But first—I rummage through the kitchen cupboards, come up with a heavy frying pan, just in case, then pull open the apartment’s main door. The corridor and stairwell are dark and silent. I close the door, go to the windows instead. Maybe I’ll catch someone out there in the courtyard. But it’s just a dark pit: the black shapes of trees and bushes, no flicker of movement. Where did they go?
I turn on a light. The place looks completely untouched. No broken glass and the front door looks undamaged. Like they just walked right in.
I could almost believe I dreamt it. But someone was here, I’m certain. I heard them. The cat heard them. Even if, right now, it couldn’t look more chilled, sprawled on the sofa, cleaning delicately between its outspread toes.
I glance at Ben’s desk, and that’s when I realize the notebook is gone. I search the drawers, behind the gap in the desk where I found it before. Shit. I’m an idiot. Why did I leave it out there in full view? Why didn’t I hide it somewhere?
It seems so obvious now. After hearing that voicenote I should have taken extra precautions. I should have put something in front of the door. Should have known that someone might come in here, poke around. Because they wouldn’t need to break in. If it’s the same person Ben was speaking to on that recording, they already have a key.
Thirty Hours Earlier
Ben
Everything goes black. Just for a moment. Then it all becomes terrifyingly clear. It is going to happen here, now, in this apartment. Right here, on this innocuous spot of flooring just beyond the door, he is going to die.