“Jess,” Sophie says, “this is Nicolas.”
Nick smiles at me. “Hey.” He turns back to Sophie. “Jess and I know each other.”
There’s a slightly awkward pause. Is this just something rich people who live in apartments like this do, all hang out together? It’s not like any neighbors I’ve ever had. But then again I haven’t exactly lived in very neighborly places.
Sophie gives a wintry smile. “Perhaps, Nicolas, you could show Jess the view from the roof garden?”
“Sure.” Nick turns to me. “Jess, you want to come and have a look?”
I feel like Sophie’s trying to get rid of me, but at the same time it’s a chance to talk to Nick without the others listening. I follow him back past the bookcase, up another flight of stairs.
He pushes open a door. “After you.”
I have to step past him as he holds open the door, close enough that I can smell his expensive cologne, the faint tang of his sweat.
A blast of freezing air hits me first. Then the night sky, the lights below. The city spread out beneath me like an illuminated map, bright ribbons of streets snaking away in all directions, the blurry red glow of taillights . . . for a second it feels like I’ve stepped out into thin air. I reel back. No: not quite thin air. But there’s not much separating me from the streets five floors down beside a flimsy-looking iron rail.
Suddenly uplighters are humming on all around us: they must be on some kind of sensor. Now I can see shrubs and even trees in big stoneware pots, a big rose bush which still has some white blooms attached to it, statues not unlike the one that got smashed to pieces in the courtyard.
Nick steps up onto the terrace behind me. Because I’ve been rooted to the spot, staring, I haven’t given him any space; he has to stand pretty close behind me. I can feel the warmth of his breath on the back of my neck, such a contrast to the freezing air. I have a sudden crazy impulse to lean back against him. What would his reaction be if I did? Would he pull away? But at the same time I have an equally crazy urge to dive forward into the night. It feels like I could swim in it.
When you’re this high up, do you ever get the urge to jump?
“Yes,” Nick says, and I realize I must have spoken the question out loud.
I turn to him. I can barely make him out, just a dark silhouette stitched against the glow from the lights behind him. He’s tall, though. Standing this close I’m aware of the difference between our heights. He takes a tiny step back.
I look beyond him and notice that there’s an extra layer of building above us: the windows dark and small and dust-smeared, ivy wound all over them, like something from a fairytale. I wouldn’t be surprised to see a ghostly face appearing behind the glass.
“What’s up there?”
He follows my gaze. “Oh, it’ll be the old chambres de bonne—where the former maids’ quarters were.” That must be where the wooden ladder leads. Then he gestures back out at the city. “Pretty good view from up here, isn’t it?”
“It’s insane,” I say. “How much do you reckon a place like this costs? A couple million? More than that?”
“Er . . . I’ve got no idea.” But he must have some sort of idea; he must know what his own apartment is worth. It probably makes him feel awkward. I suspect he’s too classy to talk about this sort of thing.
“Have you heard anything?” I ask him. “From that guy at the police station? Blanchot?”
“Unfortunately not.” It’s strange, not being able to see his expression. “I know it’s frustrating. But it’s only been a few hours. Let’s give it time.”
I feel a swoop of despair. Of course he’s right, of course it’s too soon. But I can’t help panicking that I’m no closer to finding Ben. And no closer to working any of these people out.
“You all seem pretty friendly in there,” I say, trying to keep my tone light.
Nick gives a short laugh. “I wouldn’t say that.”
“But do you all get together often? I’ve never had drinks with my neighbors.”
I can hear his shrug. “No—not that often. Sometimes. Hey, do you want a cigarette?”
“Oh, sure. Thanks.”
I hear the click of his lighter and when the flame sparks I see his face lit up from beneath. His eyes are black holes, blank as that statue’s in the courtyard. He passes me my cigarette and I feel the quick warm touch of his fingers, then his breath on my face as I lean closer for him to light the tip. A shiver of something in the air between us.