It was easy to be oneself when the stakes were low.
“Dare I hope you have set aside a dance for me?” Sir Richard asked.
“I have many unclaimed dances, sir.” As she usually did.
“That cannot be.”
Iris swallowed. He was gazing down at her with an unnerving intensity. His eyes were dark, almost black, and for the first time in her life she understood what people meant when they said they could drown in someone’s eyes.
She could drown in his eyes. And she’d enjoy the descent.
“I find it difficult to believe that the gentlemen of London are so foolish as to leave you at the side of the room.”
“I do not mind,” she said, then added, “Truly,” when she saw that he did not believe her. “I very much like to watch people.”
“Do you?” he murmured. “What do you see?”
Iris looked out over the ballroom. The dance floor was a swirl of color as the ladies spun about. “There,” she said, motioning toward a young lady about twenty feet away. “She is being scolded by her mother.”
Sir Richard leaned slightly to the side for a better view. “I see nothing out of the ordinary.”
“One could argue that being scolded by one’s mother is not out of the ordinary, but look more carefully.” Iris pointed as discreetly as she could. “She’s going to be in much more trouble later. She’s not listening.”
“You can tell this from twenty feet away?”
“I have some experience with being scolded myself.”
He laughed aloud at that. “I suppose I must be too much of a gentleman to inquire what you did to warrant such a scolding.”
“Certainly, you must,” she said with an arch smile. Maybe she was finally learning how to flirt. It was rather nice, actually.
“Very well,” he said with a gracious nod, “you are most observant. I shall count that among your many positive attributes. But I will not believe that you do not like to dance.”
“I did not say I do not like to dance. I merely said I do not like to dance every dance.”
“And have you danced every dance yet this evening?”
She smiled up at him, feeling bold and powerful and quite unlike herself. “I am not dancing this dance.”
His dark brows rose at her impertinence, and he immediately gave a gracious bow. “Miss Smythe-Smith, will you do me the very great honor of dancing with me?”
Iris smiled widely, quite incapable of feigning sophisticated nonchalance. She placed her hand in his and followed him to the dance floor, where couples were lining up for a minuet.
The steps were intricate, but for the first time in her life, Iris felt as if she were moving through the dance without having to think about what to do. Her feet knew where to go, and her arms reached out at precisely the right moments, and his eyes—oh, his eyes—they never left hers, even when the dance sent them to different partners.
Iris had never felt so treasured. She had never felt so . . .
Desired.
A shiver ran through her, and she stumbled. Was this what it felt like, to be wanted by a gentleman? To want one in return? She had watched her cousins fall in love, shaken her head in dismay as infatuation made fools of them all. They had spoken of breathless anticipation, of searing kisses, and then, after their marriages, it had all dropped to a low whisper among themselves. There were secrets—very pleasant ones, it seemed—that were not spoken of among unmarried ladies.
Iris had not understood. When her cousins had spoken of that perfect moment of desire, right before a kiss, she could only think that it sounded dreadful. To kiss someone on the mouth . . . Why on earth would she wish to do that? It seemed rather sloppy business to her.
But now, as she circled through the dance, taking Sir Richard’s hand and allowing him to spin her about, she could not help but stare at his lips. Something awakened within her, a strange yearning, a hunger from deep inside that stole her breath.
Dear God, this was desire. She wanted him. She, who had never even so much as wished to hold a man’s hand, wanted to know him.
She froze.
“Miss Smythe-Smith?” Sir Richard was immediately at her side. “Is something amiss?”
She blinked, and then finally remembered to breathe. “Nothing,” she whispered. “I feel a bit faint, that is all.”
He led her away from the other dancers. “Allow me to get you something to drink.”
She thanked him, then waited in one of the chaperones’ chairs until he returned with a glass of lemonade.