His gaze came to me. It was dark, warm, every emotion in between. A shiver danced across my spine, and before I knew what I was doing I walked toward him. I didn’t expect a rough palm to cup my face and brush across my cheek. My heart glowed like a Zippo flame.
He made a quiet noise of satisfaction when I pressed my face into his chest. His hand slid from my cheek to the back of my head, his fingers threading through my hair.
He smelled so good. Felt so good. Like comfort, security, and need, all in one. There was a name to it, but I didn’t know what.
“I’m sorry,” I breathed. “I didn’t mean for any of that to happen.”
He let out a breath in between disbelief and amusement, and I thought he muttered, “So this is the Sweet Abelli.”
He’d done something no other Made Man should do and paraded his mistress in front of his fiancée, and somehow, I had ended up apologizing for the outcome.
My nonna and mamma were right.
This man would eat me alive.
But he was so warm, felt so right, it was hard to even care.
His fist tightened in my hair, tilting my face to his. His gaze hardened.
“Where’s your cell phone?”
I suddenly realized I hadn’t taken it with me when I left. I hadn’t had one for so long it was hard to remember. “I forgot it.”
“Convenient.”
I swallowed. “I wrote a note.”
“So I heard.” His gaze fell to my hand. “Where did you find that?”
I glanced at the lighter, recognizing I’d brought it with me. “On the floor after you got into it with my brother.”
“You kept it.”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
I hesitated, a lie forming on my tongue before I swallowed it down. I felt bad enough about today that I couldn’t stand to be untruthful.
“It was yours,” I breathed.
It went so quiet I could hear the beats of my heart.
Bu-bum.
Bu-bum.
“You’re forgiven,” he rasped.
A heavy pressure drifted off my shoulders.
His tone was harsh. “You won’t leave this house again without talking to me first, do you understand?”
I nodded.
“Say it.”
I forced myself to meet his gaze. “I won’t leave the house without talking to you first.” My lungs tightened because it wasn’t a promise I could keep. Not yet.
“If you want to see your family, I’ll take you.”
I chewed my bottom lip. “My papà might shoot you.”
“Maybe.” He seemed unconcerned.
Something twisted in my chest at the thought. Made me feel hollow.
He pressed my back to the workbench, braced his hands on either side of me, and then he leaned in and kissed my throat. I sighed and tilted my head. I hadn’t expected it to go like this, but it could be said I never was that great at guessing what Nico would do.
“Can I ask for something?”
“Shoot,” he drawled against my neck.
I said it before I could stop myself. “I want Isabel gone.”
His lips traced my ear, and seconds passed as I held my breath.
“Done.”
My heart ached.
His hand ran up my thigh and around to my ass, pulling my body against his. He kissed a line down my throat.
“Can I ask for one more thing?” I breathed.
I felt a smile on my neck. “You’re awfully needy today.”
I swallowed. “No women . . . not here, okay?”
He stilled for a moment, and with a sinking sensation in my belly I wondered if I’d taken it too far. If he would say no.
“That’s what you want?”
No. I want to be enough for you.
I want you to want only me.
“Yes.”
In the next moment of silence, the anticipation of his answer wrapped around my lungs and squeezed.
His face came up to mine. Our gazes met. Lips inches apart.
I wouldn’t take a simple ring off when he’d asked, nor would I kiss him. The knowledge settled between us, mixed with the smell of motor oil and summer.
What he didn’t know was that soon I would ruin everything to the point he’d never trust me again.
A thumb ran across my lips, down my chin. “Done.”
The band around my lungs released, though a tainted feeling remained. Thick as tar and black as night. Like a venomous snake in a tropical paradise.
“So loyal to your family,” he said quietly. “Yet you listened to me and not your papà. Why? Preventing a war?”
That’s what he expected. I could read it in the way he looked at me with a sort of forced detachment.