“Thank you,” she manages.
“Those chord changes in the middle—how did you do them?”
“Here,” Greta says, holding out the guitar. “I’ll show you.”
Preeti looks momentarily dumbstruck. Then she hurries up the steps to the stage, loops the strap over her head, and places her fingers carefully on the strings. She’s wearing a Blondie T-shirt and jeans that are torn at the knees and her dark hair is pulled back into a messy bun and it nearly takes Greta’s breath away, how much it’s like seeing her former self, right down to the way her tongue is sticking out in concentration.
She looks up at Greta, suddenly shy. “It’s the part between the second verse and the bridge,” she says. “Your hands were flying.”
“Use your middle finger,” Greta says, which makes Preeti laugh. But she adjusts her hands on the fret. “There. Try it now. Start with E.”
The first note comes out with confidence; the second, more tentatively.
Which is sometimes how it goes.
“It’s not supposed to be easy,” Greta reminds her, and Preeti looks up.
“What’s it supposed to be then?”
“I think fun?” Greta says with such a lack of conviction that they both start to laugh. “Yes. Fun. It’s definitely supposed to be fun.” She glances down at the guitar in Preeti’s hands again. “Here,” she says, hooking her own fingers around an imaginary set of strings. “Try it this way.”
Preeti’s eyes dart between Greta’s hands and the guitar she’s holding. Then she starts again. This time, when she plays it, the notes ring out across the empty room with such satisfaction that neither of them can keep from grinning.
“Good,” Greta says, hopping down from the stage. “Now keep practicing.”
She’s still buzzing all over as she starts to walk back up the aisle, her heart beating fast, like it hasn’t given up the song just yet.
Preeti glances up. “Where are you going?”
“I’ve got somewhere I need to be,” she says, but before she hurries out, she turns around one more time, looking at the girl on the stage—all elbows and grim determination—and she smiles. “Burn it all down, okay?”
Chapter Twenty-Four
“So I figured something out,” Greta says the moment Ben opens the door, and if he’s got any follow-up questions, he doesn’t ask them. He just stares at her for a second, the air charged between them, and then he takes a step forward, and so does she, and suddenly they’re kissing—softly at first, then more urgently—as they stumble into the room and onto the bed, letting the door fall shut behind them.
A minute later, he pulls away. “Wait, what did you figure out?”
She smiles. “How to play again.”
“You’d stopped?”
“It’s a long story.”
“I’d like to hear it.”
She ignores this, tracing a circle around one of the buttons on his shirt. “Hey,” she says. “You know I’m not really engaged, right?”
He nods. “And you know I’m not really married.”
“Well, yeah…but I’m more not-engaged than you are not-married.”
“That’s fair,” he says; then, after a pause: “But I don’t feel married.”
Greta laughs. “I’m sure nobody does when they’re sleeping with someone else.”
“It’s not that,” he says, tucking her hair behind her ear in a way that makes her stomach dip. They both still smell like the outdoors, like sunscreen and salt water and earth.
“I know,” she says, and kisses his shoulder. He pulls her close then, and she rests her head on his chest, feeling the rise and fall of his breathing. Her eyes drift over to the table in the corner, where his typewriter sits, entirely incongruous beside his phone and computer and other more modern devices. “I still can’t believe you use a typewriter.”
“I know it seems pretentious,” he says sheepishly, “but it’s the only way I ever get anything written. No distractions. Just words on a page. You should try it sometime.”
“I’m writing rock music, not trying to crack the Watergate scandal,” she says with a grin. “I use voice memos to catch any melodies. And then notebooks for the lyrics.”
“I’m a notebook guy, too,” he says. “Nothing beats pen and paper. Though I guess it depends on the pen.”
She nods. “Rollerball all the way.”