Had I come here in my twenties, as an artist alone, I never could have appreciated the beauty of this place. Great cities are living things, and people are as much a part of their architecture as the buildings themselves. If I’m not here to laugh, and drink, and dance, and fuck on my own gorgeous balcony overlooking the canals, then why am I here at all?
I needed to feel that I was like one person to realize that I’m not so unlike the others.
Mara is my other half. Not my twin, but the parts of me that were missing.
I always thought the sense of emptiness that plagued me was the reality of the human condition. I never imagined the hole inside of me could be filled by someone else.
In all my arrogance, I missed a basic truth that other people already understood:
Everything is better when you share it with someone else.
Nothing feels insurmountable when you aren’t alone.
It’s so optimistic that I’d be embarrassed to say it out loud. And yet it’s how I feel. I’m vibrating with the joy of it, until every color, scent, and sound around me seems a manifestation of what I’m experiencing inside.
I’ve never felt so much a part of something. I am the happiness of the day, and the day exists to buoy me up.
Right as I’m thinking that, some drunken oaf stumbles into my path, dumping his spritz down the front of my trousers, drenching my brand-new Italian leather loafers.
“Scansarsi!” He shouts. “Brutto figlio di puttano bastardo Americano!”
Since I speak Italian flawlessly, I catch every word of that insult.
I turn to Mara, that old anger already blazing in my eyes.
The drunk stumbles alone toward a dark alleyway. I could easily follow after him. In the chaos, no one would remember another Rugantino in a black mask.
Mara follows my gaze, her eyes flicking ahead the alleyway, vibrant and alive beneath the smooth white porcelain of her mask.
Before I can move, she dashes ahead of me, seizing the drunk by the shoulder. She plucks the plume from her hat and draws it across his throat in one sharp motion, the scarlet feathers liquid bright against his neck. The drunk—insensible to manners, but fully alive to horseplay—pretends to stiffen up and fall over dead in the gutter, clutching his throat dramatically and making dramatic gurgling sounds.
“There,” Mara says, rejoining me, her feather tucked back into her pirate hat. “I got him for you.”
“Thank you,” I say. “Saves me the trouble.”