The center of my fucking existence rocked.
If there was such a thing as a good kind of heart attack, that’s exactly what I would have been having.
So I wasn’t surprised that my voice came out high as a fucking kite as I said, “You’re talking about mass destruction, and I don’t think I’ve ever been so attracted to you.”
His laugh was another puff against my skin.
My throat swelled up, but I found the strength to say, “But I don’t want you to think you want to be with me because someone told you that you should.”
Alex’s head jerked backward, and oh, those eyes were glowing. “Didn’t I just finish explaining that’s why I stayed away?”
“Yes, but I had to say it again.”
He scowled. “What I feel for you, it’s got nothing to do with what anybody else wants or needs. I don’t give a fuck about any of that. That’s what I give a shit about. Being with you makes me happy. I know you know what that has to mean to me.”
I squeezed his cape tighter.
“I didn’t want to like you. I didn’t plan on feeling this protective of you and your smile and your heart. Definitely didn’t want to fall in love with you and your secrets. But then you had to go off and say, ‘You snooze you lose, motherfucker,’ and I knew my life was never going to be the same after that.” He dipped his head again and snuggled me even closer as he said, “And I don’t want it to be.”
Of all the things he could have said…
Of all the things he could have done…
I pulled back to take in his face, that perfect fucking face, and I made my own choice.
I didn’t want life to be the same ever again either.
And if I couldn’t trust this son of a bitch, there was no one in the world I would ever be able to.
But that was the fucking thing—he hadn’t wanted to like me, and I hadn’t wanted to trust him.
Yet I was still here.
I reached up and cupped his face. “I swear to God, Alex, if you break my heart, I’ll find a way to break your back worse than your grandma did.”
His laugh healed something in me that I didn’t know I was missing, I guess, and he was still laughing as he said, “Best friends don’t break their best friend’s hearts.”
Oh, this son of a bitch and his fucking words.
His words…
Then he smiled at me, and I knew exactly what it was like to finally look forward to the future.
I turned on him, not waiting for an invitation, and swung around on his lap. Alex’s hands went to my thighs, and he pulled me straight into his body as my legs wrapped around him. With a hand on each side of his head, I leaned forward and brushed my mouth against his.
And oh, he didn’t let me down. Not at all. His tongue didn’t wait for an invitation as he moved his head to the side and brushed his against mine. Alex kissed the fucking hell out of me, kissing me and kissing me, sucking my bottom lip with a wild groan that had me returning it.
I pulled back just a little, clutching those smooth cheeks for dear life. “Are you sure about this?”
That gorgeous smile curved his mouth before kissing me again. “Are you sure about this?”
“I don’t want to go too fast for you,” I told him quietly. “I’ve waited this long; I can wait longer if you’re not sure.”
His eyes glowed, and he brushed his mouth over mine. “I might not be sure about a lot of things in my life, but I’m positive about you. About this.” He shook his head. “You think I’d let anybody hit me in the face with a snowball? You think there’s anybody else special enough to put up with me? That’ll tell me when I’m being a butthole?”
If I wasn’t so damn horny, I might have cried. Instead, I told him barely loud enough for him to hear, “You need to know then, if we don’t break the bed, I’m going to be disappointed.”
His smile and laughter changed my life. “I think I’m going to be focusing on other things tonight, but if not this time, next time.”
Next time.
There was going to be a next time with him.
Oh fucking boy.
Then I kissed him. His hands curved around my thighs greedily, and his tongue went straight into my mouth. His tongue stroked mine and mine stroked his, his chest pressing and rubbing against mine while we made out. There was no way my nipples had ever been harder. His hand slid up and down my back while the other molded itself around my hip, holding me against him. Him.
I could hug him all fucking day. Kiss him for the rest of my life, and it would be a fulfilling life.
And that’s what I thought of as I kissed him and he kissed me back, filling my spirit with everything I had ever wanted and dreamed of.
I started grinding on him.
I didn’t waste any time going for the material of his suit clinging to his ribs and tried to tug it down. He stood with me wrapped around him, and with a forearm under my butt, he leaned over and somehow took off his suit so fast, I didn’t even get a chance to watch him.
But I didn’t need to use my eyes after that.
Reaching under my thigh, I found his leg and then the rest of him.
Oh, the fucking rest of him.
I skimmed my hand over the silky-smooth skin, feeling just how long and thick he really was, then closed my fingers around him. I stroked his hard dick as Alex dipped his face to my neck, giving it an open-mouth kiss.
I stroked him a little faster, surprised to feel him lengthen even more, get even harder somehow as he moaned with each stroke up and down of my palm. “You’re so big. How are you so hard?” I whispered before moving my mouth toward his, slanting it over his soft lips.
I wasn’t the only impatient one. I pulled back as he tugged the front of my shirt down and went straight into sucking my nipple into his mouth.
Oh shit.
His buzzing skin had started to be second nature for the most part by that point, but when his lips went there… when they pulled at me with that wet electrified mouth and tongue…
I almost came.
My breasts were never going to be the same.
I thought I might pass out if he ever goes down on me.
“I know what you were doing while you showered when I stayed with you,” he whispered, curling his tongue under my other nipple, pulling it into his mouth too.
If it was possible, my nipples went even harder.
“I saw what you had in your nightstand,” Alex said, going back to my other breast and sucking that nipple again.
“Oh shit,” I wheezed, arching my back to get him closer. He did.
I was going to die from being so turned on.
“I’ve been dreaming about how good it’s going to feel pushing inside you,” he whispered, his wet mouth going back and forth, sucking harder than before.
Oh shit, shit, shit. He’d remembered. Of course he’d remembered.
I shuddered, arching my back closer to his mouth as I slipped my hand into his hair and curled my fingers over the back of his head. If I’d thought my heart was beating fast before, it was nothing compared to now. “Deep inside me, right?” I asked him, my voice husky and low. If he was doing this for me, talking dirty to me, I could participate. I could do it right back. “You’re going to give me every inch, Alex?” I squeezed that unreal dick, shivering at how it throbbed in my hand. My fingers were tingling with the energy coming off him. “You’ve got a lot of them, huh?” I sucked his earlobe.