She blushes so fiercely I’m amazed she doesn’t faint, and I roll my eyes, hating the way my chest tightens. “You’re disgusting.”
He laughs. “Yeah, sweetheart, it’s pretty clear you hate me. We get it.”
I pick up my notebook, holding it against my chest, and his eyes drop to it.
“What’s that?” he asks.
“Evie writes love spells. Isn’t that cute?” Dorothy giggles, covering her mouth with her hand.
His brows rise. “Oh? Looking for love, pretty girl?”
My heart stutters at his term of endearment—the one he only calls me when we’re alone—and Dorothy’s grin drops immediately, the energy in the room shifting into something more sinister.
I ignore the change.
“Maybe I’m looking for someone to curse instead. You volunteering?”
He hooks his thumbs in the pockets of his leather jacket and rocks back on his heels. “Maybe.”
“Ugh,” Dorothy groans loudly. “I’m bored. This is boring.” She turns to Brayden, whose gaze is searing into me so intensely, it feels as if he’s branding my soul. “Want to watch a movie?”
He finally drops our stare and looks to her, shifting on his feet and pawing the back of his neck. “I uh… can’t actually. I’ve been summoned by the wicked witch over here.” He tosses a thumb at me.
Normally, I would put up a fight, but the way envy swirls through Dorothy’s features has me biting my tongue. Besides, it’s true. I need him to go with me to check on someone.
“Sorry about your luck,” she says, scrunching up her nose. “Dad wants me to do something for him anyway. You know… business stuff.”
Irritation winds its way through my middle at the fact Dad has her doing something, again, and I don’t know what it is beforehand. Or maybe she’s lying just to get a rise out of me. With Dorothy, you can never be too sure.
“I tell you what,” Brayden says suddenly. “Once I’m done doing my obligations, I’ll come grab you for a late-night snack. You can tell me all about your day and your important ‘business.’”
Her face lights up and anger floods through me like a broken dam.
I close my eyes as the rage makes my hands shake, and I count back.
Ten, nine, eight…
18
NICHOLAS
I stare over at Eveline, a thousand different questions on the tip of my tongue, but not knowing how to ask any of them. I can tell she’s upset, and I’d like to assume it’s because I was flirting with her sister, but more than likely it’s because she’s just a miserable person who can’t stand to be around me.
She’s made it more than clear where we stand, and as much fun as it is to rile her up, keeping our distance is for the best. For both my sanity and my job. I can pretend I’m using her for information all I want, the truth is there’s something about her that drives me fucking crazy.
Her sister is easy and will be all too willing to share any secrets she knows.
But none of it changes the fact that I’m still stuck as Eveline’s shadow for the foreseeable future.
I glance over at her again when we stop at a red light.
“What’s really in the notebook?” I ask, partly out of curiosity and partly because I’m trying to gauge if it’s something important I should try to get my hands on.
She sighs, running a hand through her hair. “Poetry.”
Surprise swims through me, my brows skyrocketing. “Who’s your favorite?”
“I like the classics.”
“Hmm.” I nod. “She dwells with Beauty. Beauty that must die; and joy, whose hand is ever at his lips. Bidding adieu; and aching pleasure nigh, turning to poison while the bee-mouth sips.”
She blinks, her mouth parting.
“What?” I grin, turning left onto a side street that leads into Kinland Heights; one of the roughest neighborhoods in the city. “You don’t know it?”
“No, I…” She shakes her head. “I do. Keats is my favorite, I just… how do you know it?”
“I know lots of things, sweetheart.” I wink.
Her lips purse. “Well, pretty words don’t impress me. And neither does your poor attempt at avoiding actual conversation.”
My grip tightens on the steering wheel, and a sharp pain swirls through me. “My mom liked poetry.”
The hole in my chest aches when I say the words, and I don’t even know why I’m saying them. I don’t talk about my mom. Ever. And especially not with someone who’s the living embodiment of why I don’t have her anymore.
“Oh,” she whispers. “She’s dead, right?”
“Who fucking knows,” I bite out.
She tilts her head, her lips thinning. Eventually she says, “You’re mad at her.”
My stomach twists. “No, I… I don’t know what I am. I don’t feel much of anything anymore, to be honest. It was a long time ago.”
She lifts a shoulder. “My mom left a long time ago too, and I’d still be the first person in line to spit on her grave.”
My lips twitch. “My mom had issues. She wasn’t around much, and when she was, she was sick.”
Dope sick usually, but I don’t add in that bit.
Eveline rests her head against the car window, and I don’t know if that means she’s listening or she doesn’t care, but now that I’ve started talking, I don’t really want to stop. The memory surges through my insides and plays like a movie; so potent and visceral it’s like it’s happening in front of my face.
“She had this collection of old books. They were small, red, and warped around the edges. I don’t even know where the hell she got them, but when I was little, she’d sneak to my room in the middle of the night and read them to help me sleep.”
I park the car on the side street lined with small, worn-down houses wrapped in broken chain-link fences. “When I got older, and she stopped coming around as much, I don’t know… I guess they helped me feel close to her or something. It’s stupid.”
She reaches across the console, locking our fingers together, the metal from her rings cool against my palm. “It’s not stupid.”
My chest throbs with stuttered beats as I stare at her small hand and the way it fits so perfectly in mine.
“They comforted you,” she states.
She’s comforting me. I swallow around the knot in my throat. “Words were my calm in a life filled with chaos.”
A beautiful grin spreads across her face and the sight of it knocks the breath from my lungs. “Mine too.”
My hand shoots out before I can think twice, and I cup her jaw, my thumb rubbing across her pouty lip, sparks flying through my fingers. “Jesus, pretty girl. You could ruin lives with a smile like that.”
Her grin drops as she stares at me, and my heart slams against my rib cage so hard I swear it’s trying to break free and fall to her feet.
I grit my teeth, annoyed at the unwelcome feeling.
“Anyway.” I snap my hand back. “I don’t really like to talk about it.”
My words are harsh, but it has the desired effect, her face molding back into the sharp angles of a grumpy girl with a short temper. “Good, because I’m not your fucking therapist.”