“Knowing the shape of things isn’t the same thing as knowing things. But you can try.”
“Has there been any word on how the wet season’s going to be this year?” I asked. “Any chance we’re going to catch a good one?”
A baleful stare. “Ahh. Huh. No such thing as a good wet season, Kol,” he said. “But as to whether this one’s worse than others…” He waved his hand at the warehouses and lots beyond. “Read the mud, boy. Read how it’s churned. Read the number of horses, the amount of stone, the crates of bombards headed east. Read those and tell me what you think.”
“I guess post my money as fast as you can, then. Sanctum knows if I’ll get to send another.”
He slipped the dispensation in the envelope and placed it in the pile of outgoing post. “You’re a good son, Kol.”
I hesitated to respond. My family thought me neither beautiful nor bright, and I mailed my dispensations home out of filial duty rather than love or fondness. “What makes you say that? Half the Sublimes here must be sending their pay home.”
“More than half. But I only tell the good ones secrets.”
“Oh? Like what?”
He crooked a finger, and I leaned close. “Take the back way to your quarters tonight,” he said. “Some route most wouldn’t bother taking.”
“I see…Can you give me more than that?”
“Captain Thalamis came by looking for you. From the Apoths. Asking about something you did today. Didn’t like the look of him. I’d avoid him if you can.”
“Thalamis?” I said. “Why’s he coming after me? I’m not in Sublime training anymore, and he’s not my commanding officer anymore.”
“Not sure he knows that. Bastard thinks he’s commander of all he sees.” The coal in his pipe flared hot, and smoke streamed from his nostrils. “Just saying—take the back way home tonight, Kol. And stay safe.”
I thanked him and slipped away.
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I DID TAKE the back way home, the chimes of Ana’s contraption filling my mind and Stephinos’s words echoing in my ears—Read the mud.
How odd it felt. Commander Blas’s death was easily the biggest thing to ever happen to me in my career; yet the chimes and those three words made it seem very small in comparison to what the rest of the Empire did.
Every wet season, the great leviathans rose in the eastern seas and silently, steadily approached the coasts. And every wet season, the bombards and ballistas of the Legions and the great walls of the Engineers kept them back. That was the only reason the people of the cantons tolerated the taxes and drafts and commands of the Empire of Khanum: it was the Empire and the Empire alone that could marshal the resources and maintain the sea walls to keep the leviathans out. Yet when every wet season ended, the folk of the Empire did not breathe easy, but instead asked—What about the next season? What about then?
That was what it was like to be a citizen of the Empire of Khanum, especially in the Outer Rim. You lived in endless anxiety, a constant state of crisis.
It often made it a little hard to go about your everyday tasks, frankly. What was the point of fetching food or fixing up your house or caring for your family when a titan could break through the walls and kill you and a thousand others like you in a matter of hours? What was the point of doing anything, really?
Yet the Empire survived because the emperor told us this was not true. Everywhere you saw his effigy, it was accompanied by the words Sen sez imperiya. And though this was written in Khanum—an old language almost no one spoke anymore—we all knew what it said: You are the Empire.
And, more important, we understood what that meant: We are all here because of what all of us do.
Sometimes that made the days a little easier. Even when solving the occasional gruesome murder, I supposed. Yet I had become a Sublime and labored at my position not simply to support the Empire, but to make enough coin to pay off my father’s countless debts and move my family out of the Outer Rim of the Empire—too close to the shores and sea walls of the east—and purchase land within the third ring. Someplace where my family would have more walls between themselves and the titans, where they would be safe.
If there even was such a thing as being safe in the Empire these days.
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I WAS EXHAUSTED by the time I got back to my quarters. I’d used the muddiest, worst paths, and always kept an eye to make sure the way ahead and behind was deserted. When I finally approached the apprentices’ quarters, I sighed with relief.