All at once, she understood. She thought Envy had been reacting to her jealousy, his sin surging, being stoked by her strong emotion, but the stillness, the tension…
He was jealous. Of more than the goddess’s taunts. Those had been a mere distraction, a way for him to try to get his true envy under control.
And he’d failed to do so.
Wolf had touched her cloak.
Her locket.
He’d danced with her across the snow.
He’d hugged her, run those big hands along her spine, attempting a mortal’s embrace. And Camilla had sunk into it, allowing Wolf to envelop her for a moment, brief though it had been.
But Envy wasn’t human, his senses weren’t dulled.
From the second she walked in, he would have scented Wolf all over her. Had probably assumed that the Fae had sought her out once Envy went to meet the goddess.
And there was only one thing Wolf was legendary for.
A puzzle that wouldn’t have taken Envy long to solve.
Camilla imagined that Envy was vividly picturing all the things the Fae had done to her, the same way she’d just pictured what Envy was doing here. On the throne. With the goddess.
Camilla wasn’t jealous of Vittoria; she was envious that he’d dare to touch another the way she wanted him to touch her. Only her.
“I spoke with Wolf,” she said.
“I know.”
His sin chilled the chamber, frost lightly coating the walls. If she’d possessed that ability, Camilla would have iced over the chamber with her envy too.
Finally, his gaze flicked down to her locket. Or maybe he was staring at her breasts. An eternity passed in a handful of moments before he looked up, face impassive.
“Did you fuck him?”
His voice was low, but his words carried a punch.
If he expected Camilla to flinch, she refused to do so. Clarity came without warning. This wasn’t about her. Or whether she’d allowed Wolf into her bed again.
It wasn’t even about Envy’s sin, about his inability to be satisfied, like his brothers all thought. His one-night rule was about Envy punishing himself. Repeatedly.
Brick by brick he’d built a wall around his heart. His refusal to spend more than one night with a lover meant he never had to risk that wall crumbling. Never had to risk getting hurt, or falling in love, never had to risk losing. Because he had been hurt before, he’d played the game of romance and had lost; the scar ran deep, the fracture never quite mending.
And he blamed himself for a choice that was never his to make.
His mortal had gone to the Wild Court of her own free will. What had happened was tragic, but he was not to blame.
“Once.” Camilla gave him the truth, knowing he’d sense a lie. Knowing, too, she wanted to offer an olive branch. “A long time ago.”
His gaze traveled to her lips.
“Was he the male in your memory?”
“Yes.”
“How long.” His voice held no trace of anger. It wasn’t a question, either. “A year? A decade?”
Camilla’s throat tightened. He was asking so much more than he appeared to be.
“Two mortal years.”
There was a flicker of understanding in his face. Perhaps relief. Even if he didn’t know what she was, it was an admission that Camilla wasn’t human.
Moonlight streamed in from high-set windows, pooling around them. For the first time, Camilla noticed how the light bathed him in silver, giving him a celestial glow; a star fallen to grace mortals with its splendor. As if he needed any heavenly assistance to make him more alluring. Looking at him now, Camilla wondered how she’d ever believed he was human.
“Is that why you wear the locket?” he asked. “A charm to ward him off? Or is it an enchantment to hide your true nature?”
“Did you love her?”
Camilla didn’t clarify who she meant, and he didn’t ask. They both knew she was asking about the mortal, not the goddess.
He’d gone still again; this time a storm was quietly brewing behind his gaze as it turned inward.
“Infatuation. Intrigue. Deep admiration. But never love.”
He bared his teeth, like he expected her to think him monstrous for that admission of truth and played the role to own it. Masks upon masks.
Deception would be their undoing.
When she didn’t react, he filled the silence.
“I brought her to the Wild Court. Introduced her to her death. Made a selfish mistake that has impacted my entire court. That responsibility weighs.”
And then she’d wager his one-night rule was born.
Camilla knew what it was like to make a single mistake that continued to ravage. Some mistakes grew fangs and claws, always hungry for more wickedness, more regret. She wanted to ask what he’d done but sensed that was a door he’d keep firmly closed for now. She’d just walked the halls of his House, knew his mistake had grown more than proverbial fangs.
“Your turn,” he said. “Tell me about the locket.”
She expelled a breath.
“It was a gift from my mother. It wards against Unseelie males.”
It did more, but that was all she’d reveal now.
His gaze sharpened on her admission, the wheels of his mind spinning. She saw the exact moment he’d added all his clues together. “You’re Seelie. How old are you truthfully?”
Far older than twenty-eight human years. “We left Faerie when I was six.”
Envy blinked, calculating. Time in Faerie was much different. But Fae children aged slowly there even by those standards. She’d been born more than a century before.
Camilla hadn’t truly started to age until she’d left her realm and come to Waverly Green, where human time had quickly ushered her to full adulthood.
It was one of the many reasons she’d refused to marry. Camilla wouldn’t age another day in her life, would have to leave Waverly Green eventually, before anyone grew suspicious. She wondered sometimes if that had been one of the reasons her mother had left.
“Were you going to bed the goddess?” she countered.
He considered her question.
“That was the plan, if it came down to it.”
This time Camilla did flinch. Truth was more hurtful than a blade. But he’d given it to her as she’d done for him, and for that she was grateful.
Envy moved in, like a shark scenting blood in the water.
“You see, Miss Antonius, the truth is, I’ve fucked for less. I’ve fucked for more.” He nodded to the doors, the moonlight shifting into shadow on his face. “I would sooner stick my blade in that goddess than my cock. But if that was her price, I was willing to pay it.”
He was no better than a scorpion, striking out when cornered.
Camilla drew herself up, unwilling to become anyone’s pincushion. Being hurt and regretful was one thing, being an ass and lashing out was another.
“By all means. Go after her. I’m only here because I deciphered the last clue—the ‘dearly twin’ is a carved pillar, not a person. That is why I sought Wolf out. All for your stupid game. Though he did offer to make me his mate. Perhaps I’ll allow him the chance to convince me. He was quite talented with his tongue.”
Envy looked stricken, but then realization dawned. “The Twin Pillars of Faerie.”
“Perhaps you ought to take your goddess there. Stab or fuck to your heart’s content, Your Highness. Maybe a blood sacrifice unlocks your next riddle.”