“Never mind. I’ve gone suddenly deaf.” He barreled back down the stairs.
“Oh my God. What is wrong with everyone in this family?”
My dad’s voice boomed upward. “Man raftam! Khodafez!” I’m leaving! Bye!
“Khodafez!” the four of us shouted in unison.
I heard the front door slam shut as I flew to the banister, caught sight of Mehdi on the landing below.
“Wait,” I said, “please, please—”
Mehdi looked up at me and smiled his signature, devastating smile, the kind I knew had already ruined a few lives. His hazel eyes glittered in the early-morning light. “Sorry,” he said. “I’ve got plans.”
“How do you have plans at seven thirty in the morning?”
“Sorry,” he said again, his lean form disappearing from view. “Busy day.”
My mom patted me on the shoulder. “Mikhasti zoodtar pashi.” You could’ve woken up earlier.
“An excellent point,” Shayda said, swinging her backpack over one shoulder. “Bye.”
“No!” I ran back into the bathroom, rinsed my mouth, splashed water on my face. “I’m almost ready! Two more minutes!”
“Shadi, you’re not even wearing pants.”
“What?” I looked down. I was wearing an oversize T-shirt. No pants. “Wait— Shayda—”
But she was already moving down the stairs.
“Manam bayad beram,” my mom said. I have to go, too. She shot me a sympathetic glance. “I’ll pick you up after school, okay?”
I acknowledged this with a distracted goodbye and darted back into my room. I changed into jeans and a thermal at breakneck speed, nearly stumbling over myself as I grabbed socks, a hair tie, my scarf, and my half-zipped backpack. I flew downstairs like a maniac, screaming Shayda’s name.
“Wait,” I cried. “Wait, I’m ready! Thirty seconds!”
I hopped on one foot as I pulled on my socks, slipped on my shoes. I tied back my hair, knotted my scarf à la Jackie O— or, you know, a lot of Persian ladies—and bolted out the door. Shayda was at the curb, unlocking her car, and my mom was settling into her minivan, still parked in the driveway. I waved at her, breathless as I shouted— “I made it!”
My mom smiled and flashed me a thumbs-up, both of which I promptly reciprocated. I then turned the wattage of my smile on Shayda, who only rolled her eyes and, with a heavy sigh, granted me passage in her ancient Toyota Camry.
I was euphoric.
I waved another goodbye at my mom—who’d just turned on her car—before depositing my unwieldy bag in Shayda’s back seat. My sister was still buckling herself into the driver’s side, arranging her things, placing her coffee mug in the cup holder, et cetera, and I leaned against the passenger side door, taking advantage of the moment to both catch my breath and enjoy my victory.
Too late, I realized I was freezing.
It was the end of September, the beginning of fall, and I hadn’t yet adjusted to the new season. The weather was inconsistent, the days plagued by both hot and cold stretches, and I wasn’t sure it was worth risking Shayda’s wrath to run upstairs and grab my jacket.
My sister seemed to read my mind.
“Hey,” she barked at me from inside the car. “Don’t even think about it. If you go back in the house, I’m leaving.”
My mom, who was also a mind reader, suddenly hit the brakes on her minivan, rolled down the window.
“Bea,” she called. Here. “Catch.”
I held out my hands as she tossed a balled-up sweatshirt in my direction. I caught it, assessed it, held it up to the sky. It was a standard-issue black hoodie, the kind you pulled over your head. Its only distinguishing features were the drawstrings, which were a vibrant blue.
“Whose is this?” I asked.
My mom shrugged. “It must be Mehdi’s,” she said in Farsi. “It’s been in the car for a long time.”
“A long time?” I frowned. “How long is a long time?”
My mom shrugged again, put on her sunglasses.
I gave the cotton a suspicious sniff, but it must not have been abandoned in our car for too long, because the sweater still smelled nice. Something like cologne. Something that made my skin hum with awareness.
My frown deepened.
I pulled the sweatshirt over my head, watched my mom disappear down the drive. The hoodie was soft and warm and way too big for me in the best way, but this close to my skin that faint, pleasant scent was suddenly overwhelming. My thoughts had begun to race, my mind working too hard to answer a simple question.