“You’re so fucking beautiful. Goddamn, Shay. Goddamn.”
His voice is low and vehement, and his eyes are shining. I wish I could take a picture of his face so I could remember him at this moment, so I could look at it when things get rough between us, which I know they will.
I whisper, “Thank you.”
He leans over and kisses my knuckles just as two young men arrive at our tableside. They’re wearing long-sleeved white dress shirts, black slacks, and black vests with the word Spago sewn in white lettering on the chests.
“Good evening,” says the taller blond one. “I’m Brett. I’ll be serving you this evening. Christian is assisting me.” He nods toward his companion, a slender young man with a beautiful smile and big, dark eyes.
Cole leans back into his chair, crosses his legs, and folds his hands in his lap. He watches me with unwavering intent as our servers set plates of food in front of us and pour wine into the crystal goblets.
Brett gestures toward my plate. “For our first course, we have pork belly dumplings with black vinegar, chili oil, and ginger, paired with Wolfgang’s favorite dry Austrian Riesling. Bon appétit.”
They withdraw, leaving me more overwhelmed than before.
Because of course he would, Cole notices.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing’s wrong. This is just…incredible. You went to a lot of trouble. I hope you don’t think I’m the kind of girl who wouldn’t be happy getting takeout from a pizza joint.”
His voice turns soft. “I know what kind of girl you are. And don’t worry about the effort. It’s my pleasure.”
“Still, Cole. This is a lot.”
“It’s worth it just to see your expression.”
“Well, thank you. For everything. But don’t think I expect—”
“I’m going to give you things,” he interrupts. “Nice things. Things you deserve, things it will make me happy to give you because I know you’ll appreciate them, but also selfishly because I know how good it will make me feel to provide them for you.”
I exhale a shaky breath, wishing I didn’t feel so unsteady. “Okay, but don’t be disappointed when you come over to my place and I serve you SpaghettiOs from a can.”
“Are you kidding? They’re my favorite.”
Smiling, he picks up his wine glass and takes a sip of wine. I do too, glad for a distraction from the whirlwind of emotions crashing through me. Then I decide to be bold and just say what’s on my mind.
“I’m not sure how this is supposed to work. You don’t want a relationship, but you want to give me things. You said I don’t ever have to worry about anything again, but you also said that thing about only having a series of one-night stands.”
“You said that. I just agreed with it.”
“You know what I mean.”
“Eat your dumplings before they get cold.”
Another sidestep. How annoying. I keep that thought to myself as I pick up my fork and stab a fat little dumpling. I’m aggravated for all of ten seconds until I start to chew, and the flavors explode on my tongue.
“Oh. Oh my God. This is…holy wow, this is good.”
“Holy wow?” he repeats, chuckling.
“Don’t make me throw a dumpling at you.”
“You can throw anything you want at me, baby.”
His voice is so soft and stroking, his eyes so warm, it makes me shiver. I drop my gaze to my plate to avoid giving him a glimpse of everything I’m feeling. If he does, he lets it go without comment, instead pausing to take another sip of his wine.
We finish the first course in comfortable silence. Well, he seems comfortable. I’m bursting with questions I have to swallow along with my food. The second course arrives just as I’m about to ask him about Axel again, which hopefully would give me an opening to ask about Emiliano…and then everything else.
Christian clears our plates. Brett sets two new ones in front of us.
“Shanghai lobster with curry sauce and crispy spinach. Bon appétit.”
Bemused, I watch him leave. “Do you think he gets in trouble if he doesn’t say bon appétit every time he sets a plate in front of someone?”
“It’s just a fine dining thing. Oh shit.”
Surprised by the sudden change in his tone, I look at him. “What’s wrong?”
“I never asked if you like lobster.”
“You’re right. You didn’t.”
He waits for me to continue. When I don’t, he raises his brows. “Well?”