Even Nina wore only her civilian dress, though she said it was because she was confused, not working at Portis House yet not exactly working anywhere else. I told Matron I’d left my uniform off because I was resigning. “I wasn’t much of a nurse,” I said. “You know that.”
“You underestimate yourself,” she said, and then she flushed, as if the words had slipped out. “You had no training, of course. But a nurse has to have a certain amount of gumption. I hope you don’t go off and get married like a ninny and do nothing with your life.”
“I want to marry Jack Yates,” I told her. We were alone, and I was helping her with her tea. “I think that disqualifies me from ninnyhood.”
“It most certainly does,” she agreed. She didn’t seem surprised, and when I thought of all the times she had threatened to write me up for going to his room, I could see why.
“Besides,” I said carefully, taking the cup when she was finished with it and putting it on a tray, “you married.”
“Marrying doesn’t make you a ninny,” she clarified, “and neither does motherhood. But both can certainly contribute to it.”
She said nothing about her son, and I didn’t ask. There had been too much talk of death already.
It took three surgeries to put Roger’s shoulder back together, and he’d never have the full use of it again. At first, he insisted he could still work as an orderly, which was a fiction so obvious no one knew how to reply to it. But when I visited a few days later, he had changed his mind.
“They let Mabry in to see me,” Roger told me. “I gave him a piece of my mind. I wasn’t happy, I can tell you. He just let me go on and on, and he said he was sorry he shot me. And then he said he’d help, that he owed it to me because I saved his life.” Roger motioned me closer from his prone position on the bed. He was pale, but his cheeks were flushed with excitement. “Bloody rich, Mabry’s family is. He says he’ll tell his father it was an accident, and if I back him up, his father will give me a pension.”
“That sounds wonderful,” I said.
“Mabry’s mad as a hatter,” Roger said matter-of-factly, “and his father knows it. But the story is that he was defending the rest of us from Creeton with that gun. His father will soften at that. I was angry before, but now I don’t bloody care what the story is. A pension will do just fine for me.”
I smiled at him. “I’m glad,” I said. I was.
Creeton presented a different problem. As a mental patient who had proven himself a danger, he’d been kept in the hospital under guard. The police had come and gone; so had one doctor, and then another. I never learned what was said in those interviews, but I imagined Creeton claiming innocence, that he had blacked out, that he remembered nothing. I imagined him pointing out how docile he’d been, agreeing to have his hands tied, waiting calmly to be evacuated from Portis House. But no one trusted a madman, not truly, and the fact that he’d assaulted two nurses and a fellow patient—not to mention his very public suicide attempt—must have told against him. Creeton was moved out of Newcastle on Tyne; I heard he was reassigned to a higher-security mental hospital in Dorset.
Somersham recovered, as did MacInnes and Hodgkins. All were slated to be moved to another hospital, but MacInnes went home to his wife, the successful novelist. Somersham’s family didn’t want him back, but I quietly wrote Hodgkins’s cousin and told her what had happened and that he was about to be transferred. She appeared within the week and took him home.
“My God, the paperwork,” Matron said as she sat up in her sickbed. “Where are my eyeglasses? It’s enough to drive me to drink. What a mess. Why has Mr. Deighton not come?”
Nina and I exchanged a glance and evaded the question.
When I wasn’t at the hospital, I was in the temporary flat I’d rented with Jack, two doors down from the room that housed Archie, West, and Mabry. He put Anna Gersbach in a third flat of her own. He’d taken our flat as “Mr. and Mrs. Yates,” looking the landlady in the eye and daring her to disagree. She didn’t. “We’ll fix that part later,” he told me when she was gone and we were alone, making my heart flip in my chest. “When we have time.” In the meantime, we were busy.
Jack wired his banker, told him he was sane again, and withdrew some funds. Then he wired his man of business, who’d been taking care of the farm Jack had inherited from his parents, and told him he’d be home within the month. “Make sure your books add up,” he’d put in the telegram. “I’m quite good at math.”
He kissed me, hired a car, and drove to Bascombe. He returned with Maisey Ravell and a stack of files she’d stolen from her father’s study.
And then we dealt with Anna Gersbach and what had happened at Portis House.
There was no question about it: Anna had killed her father, which made her a murderer. But she was also a pawn who’d been given no chance to defend herself, whose home had been stolen and sold, who had never been allowed to mourn her brother or tell of how he had been so brutally murdered by the man she’d killed. She was also a girl who had been through too much, and was in mental distress, not quite in her right mind. As we spent more time with her, we could see that she couldn’t make many decisions, that she relied on us for even the smallest things, that when we spoke of her case, she stopped listening, as if not hearing our words would make them go away.
Maisey moved into the flat with Anna, made certain she ate and washed, found her more clothes to wear. What they spoke of when they were alone together, whether Anna told Maisey of the pain she’d been hiding all those years, I did not know. But I thought, perhaps, they understood each other.
But there was no way to keep Anna free from what had happened. We had no choice. We went to the magistrate at Newcastle on Tyne and gave him everything—every file, every witness account. Everything but the ghosts.
The resulting scandal was so large even Matron heard of it. The story had already broken that England’s Brave Jack had spent six months in a madhouse. England’s Former Hero Shell-Shocked, read one headline, and most of the others followed suit. Then the second wave of stories washed over the country’s newspapers:
SHOCKING SCANDAL AT MENTAL HOME.
DOUBLE MURDER LED TO SCANDALOUS COVER-UP.
FATHER-DAUGHTER MURDER WAS SELF-DEFENSE.
“I WAS A VICTIM,” ANNA GERSBACH CLAIMS.
Anna was taken into custody by the magistrate to wait for the inquest. Reporters came to our flat in a steady stream, asking for interviews and shooting me very, very interested looks. Jack introduced me to all of them as Mrs. Yates and stared at them as he had the landlady. They were persistent, but he gave them nothing, not a single interview or quote, and they were all disappointed.
It was overwhelming, and our days were full. But at night we never spoke of any of it. At night we got in bed together and the world went away. We talked of nothing, or of everything. Or we did other things. I’d finally found something I was truly good at, if Jack’s enthusiasm was anything to judge by. I’d grown achingly used to the feel of him, the smell of his sweat on my skin. And when we slept, it was the dreamless sleep of the exhausted.