“I would never let you die.”
I nod because I believe that he believes that.
“Perhaps not on purpose.”
That makes him frown more. He licks his bottom lip and stares at me. “You are my favourite one, do you know?”
I tilt my head patiently. “Your favourite what, Peter?”
“Girl.” He shrugs. “Ever.”
I stare over at him, surprised. “Really?”
He nods, sure.
“Why?” I ask, genuinely curious.
“I don’t know.” He shakes his head. “There’s something—” He grabs my hand and puts it over his heart, places his hand over mine. “Do you feel it? Like strings?” He looks for my eyes. “From me to you?”
I nod. “The Darling girl and the Pan.”
“Yes, but no.” He sighs as though I’m misunderstanding him. “It’s more than that. It’s…you.” Peter shrugs like it’s hopeless. “You are more beautiful than the others. And better, I think. I like your face.” He touches it with his big paw hands. “I think about it all the time. Sometimes I get angry at it because I’ll be doing important things like painting the sky or fighting a monster and your face just—bang!—pops into my head and distracts me from what I’m doing.” Peter looks truly bothered by this, and he swats his hand through the air. “It’s annoying,” he tells the smile on my face.
“Sorry,” I tell him, but I don’t mean it.
He stares at my mouth. “You kiss better than the other ones too.”
I square my shoulders and take my hand back from his chest, instead unbuttoning one of the buttons of his shirt.
“Are you kissing lots of people then?” I ask, not looking him in the eye.
He knocks my chin up with his finger so I’m looking at him. “What’s lots?”
I give him a defiant look. “You tell me.”
Peter shrugs again. “The mermaids are good, but usually it’s slippery and kind of salty.”
I grimace. “Right.”
“Marin is okay at it,” he goes on. “The best one out of them. Calla is good too, actually.”
I give him a long look. “This doesn’t make me happy here, Peter.”
His brows cross. “Why?”
“Because.” I turn away, indignant he’d have me explain it.
He stands in front of me. “Because why?”
I cross my arms over my chest. “Would you like it if I talked about other people I was kissing?”
And then he grabs me, a hand on each of my arms, grips me tightly. It hurts me a little, but I know it wouldn’t be on purpose. He just gets swept up in moments. He shakes me twice. “Who are you kissing?” he yells.
“No one.” I shake my head quickly, thankful I can say it and mean it. Grateful Jamison never did because I’m worried of what Peter might have done if he had.
“Who!” he yells more. “I’ll kill them. Give me their names.”
I stare up at him and I tell myself that I’m not afraid, but my voice comes out small.
“No one, Peter.”
And then he hugs me.
It’s a strange hug—desperately tight. He wraps his whole self around me as much as he possibly can.
“I would kill them,” he tells me.
“Okay.” I nod.
Peter shakes his head. “I won’t share you, Daph.”
“Okay.” I pause, glancing up at him. “Well then, I’d prefer not to share you also.”
Peter looks confused. “With who?”
“With anyone.” I give him a funny look. “Not with Marin, not with Calla—”
And then Peter laughs. “You don’t have to worry about mermaids.”
“And Calla?”
He lifts his giant shoulders like she’s a beetle on them. “Or Calla.”
“Do I not?” I blink. “She’s with you every chance she gets.”
Peter sniffs, amused. “Yeah, but everyone is.”
“Peter.” I fold my arms. “She likes you very much. Maybe even more than that.”
He frowns a bit. “She more than likes me?”
I nod.
“Like on the lily pad?”
I scratch my cheek before I fold my arms again. “I’m sure if you wanted.”
“Oh.” He thinks for a few seconds, brows low, and then the thought’s gone. Flies away, right off his face. “If she makes you jealous, I won’t see her anymore.”