“But I like sun,” Lake says. There’s a frown in her voice now.
“Suns melt lakes of ice, remember?” the woman ahead of us says.
“Not all suns,” Lake says.
As we move through the line, the wall on my side becomes a glass tank running from floor to ceiling. The tank is filled with blue-green water sparkly with light. Filled too with many red, strange-shaped fish. They look like pulsating mushrooms or flowers, each one trailing a tangle of tentacles.
“Like jelly-or brainflowers,” Lake says. “Trailing spinal ropes.”
“Yes.” We watch them pulse prettily.
“Like hotels have in the lobby sometimes,” I say to Lake, pointing to the tank. “The fancy ones. This must be a fancy spa place.” I’m surprised at how easily the words come to me. “This must for sure be where we’re checking out.” When I say this, I feel so much better. This is the line to leave here. The long, dark hall leads to an exit. And then I realize I don’t have my purse with the cards in it. Or my phone cell. Fuckshit. But maybe that’s what they’re giving us up front, our purses plus our shoes plus our clothes plus the gift bags.
“They must be giving us our purses up there. So we can leave and pay.”
“Yes,” Lake says, but she doesn’t sound convinced. She’s still looking at the jellyflowers in the tank. Pulsing with thoughts and dreams. “There’s just so many of them.”
“They’re pretty,” I offer, but I don’t know. Are they? They scare me.
“I don’t love them at all. Too jelly and hairy. Look, one of them is looking at you.”
“It is? Who?”
And Lake points at the one jellyflower. Red and staring and floating very close to the glass. Pulsating softly. It’s looking at me, Lake is right. I see its red eyes staring into my eyes. And then it moves when Lake and I move forward in the line. Moves with us.
“See how it’s following you?”
“It is not,” I say. But it is.
“It is. Maybe it loves you,” she says, a little longingly. The longing creates a ripple of sadness on her lakesmooth face.
“No,” I say. “How can it love? It’s a creature made of jelly.” And with my mind I tell the jellyflower to go, please go, swim away. But it won’t. It keeps moving forward as we move forward. Head pulsing to the beat of my own heart. Tentacles fluttering like my nerves.
“How ugly it is,” Lake says. She shudders. Draws her white robe tighter around her Brightened body. “And look at it looking at you.”
“Yes,” I say.
“Your fairy godfish.” She laughs. “Maybe it wants to go home in your bag of samples. Will you take it home?”
I look at the jelly. Something fluttering in me as it flutters behind the tank.
“It would be very silly,” I say to Lake.
“Yes. And how ugly it is too.” She says it like she didn’t just say it a second ago. “Though maybe you could kiss it. And it will turn into something less ugly. Like one of those silly stories—”
“And which story might that be?”
We look away from my fish and find we are at the front of the line now. Standing before us is a woman in red. She looks like a Queen of Snow, so white and beautiful, she freezes the breath in our lungs. Makes winter in my heart. She wears a long dress of red silk. I’ve met her before, haven’t I? Looked into her blue eyes flecked with gold like twin suns each in their very pale sky. On either side of her are two Statues of Cold. They are not smiling. Their eyes are ice. The Queen of Snow does not appear to have my purse for me. Neither do the Statues of Cold. Then one of the Statues hands me a clear bag of clothes. My clothes, at last, I think. But these are white-and-red silk. Very pretty. Very pretty, but not my clothes.
“These aren’t mine. There must be a mistake, sorry. I need my clothes to go home in, please.”
The Statues of Cold smile. Then so does the Queen of Snow. “Of course these are your clothes.” Her voice is terribly, eerily beautiful like the chimes. They nearly lull me into saying, Yes, of course these are my clothes, you’re right. But I catch myself.
“No. I mean, they’re very pretty. Thank you,” I say, curtsying to the Statue of Cold who gave them to me. “Just not mine.”
The Queen of Snow is still smiling with her eyes. “These are your clothes. And you are home,” she says in her chime voice.
“Home? I am?”
In the tank beside me, I sense my following jellyflower hovering close by. Pulsing just behind the glass. No, no. No, no.