“Lark.” He grabs my shoulder, pulling me to the stairs. To safety. “You don’t need to prove yourself here.”
I dig in my heels. “I can help.”
So often I have not been able to.
Azmar studies me, his eyes shifting between each of mine. He’s probably looking at my bruises and doubting me. I would doubt me. If I couldn’t fight back my own kind, how can I fight off a monster?
Seeing him waver, I press, “The council assigned me to Unach for a reason.”
His head turns toward the stairs.
“She’s out there.” Unach’s on shift right now. I touch the hand still gripping my shoulder. “Let me help her. Please, trust me.”
Azmar presses his lips together, emphasizing the short tusks on either end of them. The city shakes beneath our feet. He says nothing, only steers me toward the south dock. Elation and fear swirl together in my middle, so tightly I’m dizzy with them.
I run onto the south dock. Four trollis already man the others’ ropes. I hurry to the chest and find the smallest harness, stepping into it and clipping it in place with practiced ease. Azmar is at the closet, pulling out belts and sheaths and knives. The ground shakes again. He hands one belt to me, then takes the liberty of securing another over my shoulder. I grab a rope, and he takes the other end.
“I’ll spot you.” He ties his end around his waist and looks at me directly. “Be careful.”
He doubts me. I can read it in his face, his posture. But he’s giving me a chance. It’s all I could possibly ask of him.
With my rope secure, I step off the dock onto the footholds. I grip the handholds tightly with my clammy hands and climb. The bruises on my legs and back fire in protest, but the higher I climb, the more numb they become. The four other monster slayers’ ropes lead upward, following a wet trail. Slime?
I reach for a higher handhold and grasp it, but as I pull myself up, I scrape my bruised hip. A startled cry escapes me. Gritting my teeth, I push strength into my limbs, imagining my arms are as thick as Azmar’s. Imagining I’m safe in a lift. Reminding myself that if I fall, he’ll hold the rope. Azmar will not drop me.
The city shakes in regular bursts under my hands, forcing me to hold steady and press my body into the outer wall. The monster runs. A strange sound, like a mix between a crow and a cat, tears through the air. The slime gets thicker. The ropes of my colleagues shift.
I groan through my teeth as I pull myself up a steep part of the wall, trying to keep my weight on the footholds. My head raises just high enough above the next lip that I can see the monster in its entirety. It’s enormous, at least fifty feet long. Its skin is black and porous, its limbs thick and ending in reptilian feet with massive claws. Its eyes are so dark I can barely tell them from its black skin, its head the shape of a spade. A sharp beak glistens around its mouth. I recognize it from my studies: lecker.
I spot Unach. The city slopes in such a way that she only needs one handhold, and she’s looped her rope through it so she has better mobility. She’s immediately below the monster’s shoulder and slashes at it with her great curved sword. Every time the beast dances away, the city shakes. I readjust my hold, fear making my hands even slicker. Troff sidesteps near the monster’s tail and slashes it with his own blade, spilling black blood. The other two shuffle on the other side.
I grip the lip of the city and haul myself up, hissing against my bruises and the sweat dripping into my eyes. A gust of hot wind rips past me, as though trying to peel me from the city. I grip tighter and pray to the stars to hold me there.
When I look up again, I see what the others do not: a second monster, dark and sleek like the first, coming up the canyon wall, slow and silent. If the monster can jump, it will be on them in seconds.
Fear bursts from my heart and powers my arms. I haul myself onto the lip and press myself to the city wall. I’m able to stand here, but one good shake, one strong gust, and I’ll topple over. I wedge my foot into a crevice where the walls connect and grab a handhold over my head.
The second monster leaps.
I push everything I have at it. Every goose bump, every shudder, every clatter of teeth. My hurt, my pain, the terror that both fuels and stiffens me. Every memory of fear I can muster, and I have many.
I lock my gaze on the beast and terrify it, and in the process my knees buckle and my vision darkens. My body heaves with the fright, but I squeeze the handhold until the skin over my knuckles splits. I know fear. Unadulterated fear, without a wielder, cannot hurt me.
Here, I am the wielder. I am the weapon.