I made a face. “You know I hate Skittles.”
“You’re missing out. Give the red ones another shot. They’re a lot better than Sugar Daddies.”
“Sugar Babies,” I corrected him. It was a constant source of amusement to Mateo, back then, that the only candy I liked was a hundred years old and had a perverted name.
“Ivy Sterling-Shepard,” Mateo said, shaking his head. He’d started using my full name when we were joking around, and it always gave me a little thrill. There was something almost flirty about it. “Why can’t you ever try something new?”
“I try new things all the time.” That was such a blatant lie that we both laughed.
“Come on.” He held out a red Skittle. “Expand your world.”
“Fine,” I sighed, plucking it from his palm and popping it into my mouth. I grimaced the entire time I chewed the gritty, fake-fruit sweetness. “Thanks, I hate it,” I finally said, swallowing. “Give me Sugar Babies any day.”
“You’re so random. You know you’re the only person in the world who still eats those, right?” Mateo asked. We turned off the main road and onto a path leading into Bird Park, a shortcut to my house. It was late afternoon on a Saturday, and the usually bustling park was nearly empty. “They probably keep a single factory open just for you.” He finished the last of his Skittles and dropped the crumpled bag into the larger plastic bag holding the rest of his haul, then rooted around for more. “Can I interest you in a Red Hot?”
“Ew. No,” I said. We reached the swing set at the edge of the playground, and I hoisted myself onto one of the rubber seats. The way-up one, Daniel and I had called it when we were little. It was so much farther from the ground than the other swings, a kid couldn’t dream of getting into it without an adult to help. Even now I had to jump, setting the swing in motion with the effort. “I’ve tried enough new things for one day,” I added.
Mateo dropped his candy bag on the ground and then suddenly he was in front of me, steadying the swing’s chains with his outstretched arms. “Are you sure?” he asked.
In the swing I was almost the same height as him, but not quite. His hands were just above mine on the chains, and our knees were nearly touching. My cheeks grew warm as I met his dark, questioning eyes. We’d had little moments like this for weeks, where we’d be talking like normal and then, without warning, the energy between us would shift into something new. I never knew what to do with that pulsing, buzzing feeling.
Until now. “No,” I said, and then I leaned forward and kissed him. One of his hands released the chain to curl around the back of my neck, pulling me closer. He smelled like Tide detergent and cherry Skittles, which I no longer hated even a little.
As first kisses go, it was pretty great. Afterward we were both shy and embarrassed, but we couldn’t stop smiling, either. I thought for sure it was the start of something, not the end. Until we never talked about it again.
At least, I thought we didn’t.
“Sugar Babies?” I repeat now. The train rattles into Haymarket and comes to a stop, its doors opening with a loud hiss. “You left some for me?” Mateo nods, and I say, “I never got them. Where did you put them?”
“Inside the porch.”
Our house has a screened-in porch that we never lock, leading to our actual front door. So if something was left there, the only person who would’ve taken it and not told me is…“Daniel,” I say tightly. “I bet he snagged the candy and tossed the note. That asshole.”
“Wow.” Mateo shakes his head. “Well, that explains a lot. You don’t usually, you know. Not talk about stuff.”
“I would have at least thanked you!” After jumping around for joy, I think. Ugh, this is terrible. My entire high school experience could’ve been different. “I kept wondering why you acted like it never happened.”
“You could’ve said something,” Mateo points out.
He’s right. I absolutely could have, if I weren’t a writhing mass of angst and self-doubt back then. That was the year my parents finally decided to get Daniel tested for being gifted. I knew about it, of course, but Mom and Dad were very matter-of-fact about the results to our faces. I didn’t understand how exceptional my brother was until I accidentally eavesdropped on my parents during one of my late-night refrigerator raids a few weeks later.
I was halfway down the stairs when I heard my mother say, “It’s a big responsibility, guiding a child this bright.” There was the sound of shuffling paper, and then my mother added, “Sometimes I look at these results and wonder where on earth he came from. We’re no slackers, James, but Daniel is…”