She gets to her feet. “Will you excuse me?”
“Of course.” I watch her leave, and then I turn toward the setting sun.
My heart is heavy inside my chest. Rafe was forced to become this version of himself all because of his father’s twisted agenda. Does he still believe that love equals weakness? The thought makes me ache for him. Maybe I can prove to him that it doesn’t. After all, the only reason we’re here now is because I was brave enough to marry him because of how much I love my sister. My love for her gave me courage.
And now my love for him does the same.
I let out a breath.
It’s time to take another leap of faith and tell Rafaele how I feel.
CHAPTER 34
CLEO
I return to the party and search for my husband. He’s standing outside by the bar, surrounded by his capos and their wives. I squeeze past them and take his hand. “Come with me.”
He gives me a curious look but doesn’t argue when I pull him after me.
I guide him down the illuminated path that leads into the garden and walk along a wall of dense bushes that conceal us from view. I stop, press my back against the foliage, and tug on Rafaele’s lapels until there are only inches between his body and mine.
He stares at me, brows furrowed. “What’s going on, tesoro?”
“Rafe, I have to tell you something.” My voice is trembling. I’m acting weird, jittery from the adrenaline and everything else.
His eyes narrow. “Did something happen?”
“No. Nothing bad.”
The tension in his shoulders eases. “Then what is it?”
“I just…there’s something I want to say.” It comes out as a whisper. God, I sound completely terrified.
What if he rejects me? What if he says he doesn’t feel the same? That he’ll never feel the same? I don’t know. But I can’t keep doing nothing. That’s not who I am. I take a deep breath.
Suddenly, understanding flashes across his expression.
My heart drops. Oh no. I think he just guessed what’s coming. There’s no time left to waste. I have to tell him. “I l—”
His lips crash down on mine, silencing me.
A fracture appears inside my chest. Maybe I should pull away, but I don’t. Instead, I whimper and pull him closer.
He wraps his arms around me and holds me tightly. He bites and tugs on my lips, sliding his tongue in and out, his body hard and hot against me. We break apart, and then he’s back. He won’t give me more than a second to catch my breath.
I’m not an idiot. I get it.
He doesn’t want to hear what I have to say.
The backs of my eyes prickle, but I push the feeling down. It’s not hard, not when his hands are under my top now, hot and possessive, and he’s tweaking my nipples and making my skin buzz. I moan into his mouth, and he falls to his knees before me, hikes up my skirt with one palm, shoves my wet panties aside, and drags his tongue over my burning flesh.
I let out a broken gasp. Yes, this is good. This is easy. Him giving me pleasure, and me accepting all that he’s willing to give.
What if that’s all he’ll ever give? Is it enough? Forever?
I give my head a hard shake, ignoring the pinch from the twigs poking against my scalp.
“Hold your skirt. I need both hands.”
I clutch onto the fabric, and he spreads my legs apart a few inches farther, giving himself better access. He pulls down my panties and shoves them into the back pocket of his slacks.
He licks my opening and then moves back up to my clit. I shudder when he sucks it into his mouth, moan when he swirls his tongue. Heat blankets my body. I slide my fingers into his hair and hold on to him as he brings me closer and closer to the edge.
Suddenly, his mouth is gone. He pulls me down to the grass, his movements harried, desperate. His face appears above me, wet with my juices.
“Why did you stop?” I pant.
“I need to be inside you,” he grunts, undoing his tie and pulling it off his neck. He balls it up and stuffs it into my mouth. I make a muffled sound.
“Shhh. I don’t want our guests to hear your screams.”
The only warning I get is the clank from him undoing his belt buckle, and then he shoves into me with one hard stroke. A scream tears its way out of my throat, muffled by his tie. My eyes roll to the back of my head. I’m so full, so stretched.
“You okay?” he asks, his chest rising and falling with harsh breaths.
I press my heels into his thighs, urging him to move. I’m right on the edge again, my orgasm within reach. He doesn’t need more encouragement. He starts thrusting, soon settling into a relentless rhythm against my G-spot.