My phone vibrates in my hand. I look down to find a text from Beck.
BECK
Call me
CAMDEN
Can’t. I’m busy.
BECK
Are you on another call?
CAMDEN
No.
BECK
In a meeting?
CAMDEN
No.
BECK
When have you ever declined a business call? What could you possibly be doing?
His caller ID pops up on my phone. I decline it immediately, not wanting to wake Pippa up. My phone vibrates immediately with another new text.
BECK
You’re being weird. I’m trying to talk business. Answer your phone.
CAMDEN
I’ll call later. Busy.
BECK
I need proof of life. Is this even you?
I snap a picture of my middle finger against the sheets to not give myself away and send it to him.
BECK
I know cheap sheets when I see them. I know the place you’re renting doesn’t have those sheets, or if they did, Trisha’s replaced them.
CAMDEN
I’m living like a local.
BECK
I call bullshit.
He calls again. The fucker is relentless. I don’t remember prying so much into his life when he disappeared into a bubble when Margo first moved in with him.
CAMDEN
Leave me alone.
BECK
We’ll talk about this later. I have to know what townie has lured you into their bed.
Are you cuddling at two in the afternoon on a weekday?
CAMDEN
Fuck off. Shouldn’t you be galavanting with your new wife?
BECK
She’s ignoring me, busy painting shit for your gallery. I’m lonely and wanted to talk about a new business venture.
CAMDEN
Tell her she can have an extension if you’ll leave me the hell alone.
BECK
Can’t wait to get all the juicy details later.
I roll my eyes, placing my phone next to me so I’m not tempted to respond back to my nosy friend. I glance at Pippa, not expecting to see her eyes fluttering open.
“Did I wake you up?” I whisper, pushing pieces of hair from her face.
She gives me a sleepy smile, and fuck, it disarms me. I almost push her off my chest, not wanting her to feel my rapid heartbeat against her cheek, but I can’t bring myself to do it. I just pray that she doesn’t feel the way my pulse spikes at the sheer beauty of her sleepy smile.
“I’m sorry if I did,” I add as she stretches her legs underneath the blankets. Her foot brushes against my leg. I want to tangle my limbs with hers, to hold her against my chest as we both get lost in sleep.
“I should probably get up anyway.” Her voice is throatier than normal as she tries to wake up.
My thumb traces over her cheekbone, over the same place I wanted to caress while she slept peacefully on my chest. “Go back to sleep for a bit. I’m going to go make some food for when you wake up.”
She doesn’t argue, the medicine getting the best of her as her eyes flutter closed once again. I take a few moments to watch her again before I carefully slide out from underneath her. I miss her body the moment we’re no longer connected, but I want her to have more to eat than just the pastry I bought from the cafe, so I break the connection and walk in the direction I think her kitchen is.
My stomach growls. Watching episode after episode on the Food Network is making me hungry as well.
Her dog—named Kitty, which is such a Pippa thing to do—follows closely behind me. It isn’t hard to find the kitchen in her small one-story house. I like how homey it feels here. Even with the limited amount of space on the quiet, small-town street, she’s made the space she has feel like a home, not a house. As I look around, making my way to the kitchen, I realize how cold and empty my penthouse in Manhattan must feel.
I stop on pictures that line the wall in her living room. There are so many of them, and I can’t help but look closely at each photograph. There’s some with Pippa and who I now know as her brother and who must be their parents. I look at the woman who has to be her mother because of the resemblance between the two. My heart feels heavy when I look at Pippa’s arm wrapped around her. I haven’t had to mourn a parent—not that mine were really ever parents at all—but I can’t imagine what it’d feel like to lose one who was as amazing as Pippa made her mom out to be.
I continue to look at all the photos, marveling at the life Pippa’s lived. There are pictures of her on horses, at her bakery, and some with a blonde that seem to be from college. I fight the urge to want to know everything about her. I want to know the backstory for every photo. It isn’t lost on me that I searched for men in them, wondering if a man has ever stolen her heart or what her past must look like.