That’s the risk you run with covert operations—not that you’ll forget your lies but that, someday, you’ll start to believe them.
They weren’t a couple out for a walk in the snow. They hadn’t woken up naked and sated and spooned together beneath the weight of a warm duvet. And yet there she was—gazing up at him with her big green eyes and rosy cheeks . . . She looked so pure and good that it was like biting into something way too sweet. Sawyer wasn’t used to it. He felt his breath catch. But that was probably because of the cold. Or the smoke. Or both.
She pulled the balm from her pocket and ran it across her lips—rubbed them together for good measure.
Yeah. It was definitely both.
“Trust me, there’s no need to be worried,” he told her.
“Oh?” She brightened.
“You should be terrified,” he said then pulled her toward Plan B, praying like hell that he still had a few tricks up his sleeve.
Chapter Ten
Her
When she saw the signs for the Metro she felt a small glimmer of hope. Metros have seats, after all, and shelter and vending machines. And she had some euros burning a hole in her pocket. “Ooh! Are we going to take a train?”
But Mr. Never Gets Tired Guy didn’t even answer. He just kept walking, past the escalators and over a bridge and down a steep embankment. And then he was pulling at a chain-link fence, squeezing between the rusty wires like this was the most normal thing in the world.
“So that’s a no on the train then,” she said, numbly following him to the underside of the bridge. The snow was deeper there, blown into drifts by the wind. But they were out of sight, at least, and she leaned against the cold stone arch, shivering with her hands in her pockets, admiring the view. Turns out, in Paris, even the graffiti was lovely.
She could feel his gaze on her, though. Appraising and more than a little warm as he ducked his head and looked at her over the turned-up collar of his peacoat. There were big flakes of snow in his dark hair, and everything about him looked like he’d just stepped out of an ad for really expensive man perfume. She could see it now: Covert—the new fragrance by Calvin Klein.
Maybe in her real life she was used to handsome men looking at her. But probably not. She felt her face go hot in the cold air. She was half dead and who knew when she’d last brushed her hair, so she felt pretty certain this wasn’t the good kind of staring. But there was no use trying to read a face that the Central Intelligence Agency had trained to be unreadable.
“What? I’m just resting. Is resting allowed?” she asked because even though she didn’t want to sit in the cold, wet snow, she could lean, so she was going to lean as long as possible.
She didn’t expect him to say, “You’re doing great, you know?”
His gaze was more intense now, and something about the kind words and gentle tone . . . They broke her. “Then you must have a concussion, too.” Her voice cracked. Her eyes burned. And, suddenly, his face morphed from wry appreciation to dude who is terrified a woman is going to start crying.
“Don’t . . . No. It’ll come back. Your memory . . . It’ll . . . Don’t worry.”
“Yeah.” She wiped her eyes and forced a smile. “I’m sure once I see something familiar . . . I mean, as soon as we find Alex . . .” She let the sentence trail off, waiting for him to say something. It was obviously his turn to say something! But he stayed quiet. And somehow the silence was a warning. “We are going to find Alex, aren’t we?”
“Sure.” He pulled the knife out of his sleeve and turned his attention to a big metal box covered with scary-looking stickers. Which was better than looking at her, evidently.
“Wait. You do have a plan to find my sister, don’t you?”
“Of course.”
“Then what is it?” She pushed off the wall and prowled closer, but he stayed silent. “Well . . .”
He exhaled a weary breath. “We don’t have to find Alex. When the time comes, Alex will find us. Okay?”
Except . . . it wasn’t okay. It wasn’t even a little bit okay. “So just to be clear . . . the plan is you have no plan.”
“Look.” He wheeled on her, and for the first time, he seemed just as cold, just as tired, just as cranky as she felt. “Alex doesn’t need us. Alex doesn’t need anyone. While we’re out here getting our asses handed to us, Alex is curled up somewhere warm and dry, sharpening her knives and biding her time, which is exactly what we’re going to do just as soon as we get someplace safe.”