“You broke up with me drunk, and then the next day sent me all my stuff!” she yells at me. “The next day!” She throws her hands in the air. “You can’t blame the booze on that!”
“That is where you are wrong,” I say gently. “I did it that night.” The words come out soft. “I was so pissed that you just left, I stormed in the house and started packing up your stuff.” Her arms fall to her sides. “So I’m even more of an idiot, I know. But when I woke up the next day, it was a blur. I swear to you, Sofia, I didn’t even remember that I packed your stuff up. I woke up and saw all your things gone from the side table and then bits and pieces were coming back. But then I was coming to you when David,” I say, his name raising my eyebrows, “knocked on my door and presented me with my own box.” She rolls her eyes. “Yeah, David; the same David I told you had his dick wet for you. He was returning my stuff to me with all of our pictures cut in half.”
“He did not!” she declares, not looking at me. “And you are missing the point.” She looks at me. “You fucking broke my heart!” she yells at the top of her lungs, anger filling the room. “You fucking shattered me!”
“Do you not think I broke my own heart?” I ask, hating I hurt her so deeply. “You don’t think that it killed me just as much as it killed you?”
“I have no idea,” she says softly. “You know why, you didn’t even bother to come and see me, to come and talk to me. To do anything.”
“I tried to call you a week after,” I tell her, “but your phone was already disconnected.”
“Oh, it was fucking disconnected two days later. Two days I waited for you to come and see me. Two days, telling myself, you know that he’s going to come, just you wait.” She shakes her head. “I was wrong.”
“There are a few things I’ve done in my life that I regret,” I tell her, swallowing the lump in my throat. “That night is number one on that list. I lost the best thing that has ever happened to me. I lost the woman I loved more than life itself. I lost half of my soul that night.”
“Well, you got it back.” She laughs. “You were getting married.” She shakes her head. “I don’t know what you wanted to do tonight. I don’t know why it matters, to be honest, we have moved on.”
“I’m so sorry,” I apologize to her instead of telling her that I haven’t moved on, I don’t say the words. Two years later, and one look at you and I’m right back in it. “I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry I broke us. I’m so fucking sorry,” I say in a whisper.
“You are two years too late,” she says and my heart shatters in my chest.
“Didn’t you always say it’s better late than never?” I point at her, hoping she throws me a rope because I’m in the water and it feels like I’m drowning.
“Okay, fine, I accept that you are a horse’s ass.” She looks at me. “What do you want?”
Everything! my head screams but my mouth is in control. “To be friends.” Saying the words feels like acid in my mouth.
“I am not going to be friends with you.” She shakes her head.
“Why not?” I ask, shocked. “I’m a good friend!” I shriek. “I’m a very good friend.”
“I have enough good friends,” she informs me.
“Everyone can use more friends.” I put my hands in my pockets because my cock has decided that this is the part where I show her how much I want to be her friend.
“Not me, but thanks.” She cocks her head to the side and with her hair up it gives me access to her neck.
“Okay,” I concede, walking toward the door and her. I see her eyes turn a touch lighter, and I even see the disappointment on her face. “Thank you for taking the time to talk to me.” I lean down, and our eyes lock right before I kiss her cheek. “See you soon, Sofia.” I walk to the door and she hasn’t moved from the spot she’s in. “I got you a burger with cheese and bacon and fried pickles.” I open the door, hoping she says not to go, but I know her. I know she’s going to let me go. I deserve it. I know it. She knows it. But what she doesn’t know is that I’m not going anywhere.
I’m walking off the ice, and for the first time in a long time, I slept like a champ. Of course I woke up with the biggest hard-on of my life, even after taking a shower and jerking off to her, twice.