There is no one more deserving of breath.
And it will be the honor of my life to give her mine.
I lay her back down, then shakily grab the bottom of my helm.
If this works and she awakens, you will have broken your creed, Kairyn sneers in my mind. You will have abandoned everything you’ve ever stood for! You will bring shame to the throne of Spring!
“I know,” I whisper. “And I choose this path, anyway.”
You can’t do this! Ezryn, stop!
I lift the helm off my head and drop it to the side.
The air makes my wet cheeks cold, and a breeze plays at the ends of my hair. It’s been so long since I’ve bared my face in nature and not only in the privacy of my chambers.
“I seek no forgiveness, nor ask for understanding,” I whisper to the wind, to my people, to the ancient fae of Spring. “This is my will, my choice. I offer Rosalina O’Connell the breath of life.”
I lean down and place my lips against hers.
76
Rosalina
A wind blows through my lungs, quelling the fire that’s blazing. My ribs ache with pressure, and water billows up my throat. Then that wind flows through me again.
Come back to me, a voice cries within my mind.
That wind … It’s pushing me out of the fire. But I’m so tired, it would be so much easier to lie down and burn.
Come back to me, the voice growls again, commanding and insistent. I give you my breath of life. Come back to me!
The blackness clouding my vision wavers, but I still can’t see anything. The voice is right beyond it, I’m sure of that. A beam of light shoots out, disappearing into the gloom ahead.
Come back to me.
I suck in a breath of cool air. The shred of light tremors with each beat of my heart. I want to follow where it leads. I’m coming. I’m coming back to you.
I run through the darkness in my mind, using the light as a guide. The wind and fire and water swirl around me, but I push them away. I’m coming!
Because this thread is familiar; it’s been dormant in my heart, waiting for its moment to bloom. No longer stuck in hibernation, waiting. This part of me has been patiently anticipating its season.
Waiting to be forged into something greater.
The darkness shifts, storm clouds cast away by a breeze. An image wavers in front of me. I blink my eyes, trying to clear my vision.
There’s a face. Someone’s holding me in their arms. A man.
It’s a stranger … I don’t recognize him. But he seems concerned, his dark brow furrowed, mouth trembling.
This stranger is beautiful, in a rugged way. Stubble covers his firm jaw, his upper lip shaded by a mustache. His tawny skin drips with water. His dark hair falls in short waves around his pointed ears.
“Who are you?” I manage to ask, throat raw and raspy.
He flicks his gaze up, eyes meeting mine. They’re the deepest brown.
And familiar.
Eyes I’ve never seen, only felt.
Suddenly, it hits me like an arrow to the heart. This face isn’t unknown to me at all; I’ve seen flashes of it within myself and only now have the clarity to understand.
“Rosalina,” the fae man says. His voice sings within me. I recognize that voice. It’s different without the reverberation of his helm, but it’s still unmistakable.
“I know you,” I whisper, raising my hand to lightly touch his jaw. The feel of this skin beneath mine is like coming home.
A hesitant smile breaks across his face, and it’s more beautiful than anything I’ve ever seen. His eyes crinkle as he looks me over, taking in my heaving chest. “I know you,” he whispers.
“Ezryn.” I fling myself upward, wrapping my arms around his neck. He grabs me back, burrowing his face into the crook of my neck. Tears fling from my eyes as I rake my nails across his skin, then tangle my hands in his hair; every bare piece of him feels like magic.
“I thought I lost you,” he murmurs.
Pulling back so I can stare into his eyes again, I say, “I’m not going anywhere without you.”
His expressions are all new, and yet it’s as if I can match them perfectly to the tilts of his helm. Relief and joy bloom in the warmth of his smile, the shake of his head.
Something glints beside us: Ezryn’s helmet. “Ez,” I gasp. “Your helm! You’re showing me your face.”
Now, his expression shifts to one I’ve never seen before. He stares deep into me as if he could see the whole world in my eyes.
And it’s funny, because I swear, I’m seeing the whole world in his.
“Do you know why I didn’t kill you that very first day in Castletree when I thought you were a spy?”