I stare up at Brandon, and the way he looks at me does shit I definitely do not approve of. He’s like a kicked fucking puppy, which is miles apart from his usual condescending asshole image.
“Thank you,” he whispers softly, almost airily.
Fuck this asshole and that deep voice of his.
I have to get out of here.
No. Not have. It’s a fucking need at this point or I might really do shit I’ll regret.
And Jer isn’t here to stop me.
“I didn’t do it for you. I just wanted someone to punch and they happened to be there.” I start to move again, but he tugs harder on my T-shirt.
“Now what?” I snap.
He needs to get his hand off me, because it’s giving me fucked-up ideas.
And none of them are things he approves of.
Brandon swallows and my gaze goes straight to his Adam's apple. He does it again as if giving me the show I want, then clears his throat. “Did…you get the texts I sent you?”
“Yeah, so?”
“Why didn’t you reply?”
“Why would I? Should I have rejoiced and thrown a party because the almighty Brandon King finally recognized my existence, decided I’m not disgusting anymore, and texted me? Get over your useless fucking self.”
His jaw tightens and he releases me. “Don’t be a dick. I apologized for what I think is a misunderstanding. I…don’t believe you’re disgusting because of your sexuality. I would never think that.”
“Thanks for nothing.” This time, I’m hell-bent on leaving.
Because unlike fucker Brandon who can lie through his teeth during a useless game and keep his control in check, I have zero chill.
And I need to go before I do something I’ll regret come morning. I didn’t even do regrets before the ill-fated meeting with this complete fucking charmer.
Brandon steps in front of me, or more like sways since he’s as drunk as a sailor. There’s only a subtle slur to his words, though, as if he can keep control despite being pumped full of liquor.
“What the fuck do you want now?” I sneer. “You’re uncharacteristically clingy tonight.”
“I want to ask you something.”
“Why would I answer? We’re not friends or anything are we, Lotus—” I cut myself off before I call him that.
Of course the bastard noticed the miscalculation despite being wasted, because his lips twitch.
Jesus fucking Christ.
I know I’m supposed to be mad—or keep up with the image, anyway—but it’s impossible to hold on to the anger I’ve left to fester when he’s smiling.
He is actually smiling without faking anything, his lips curving and his eyes softening. He looks happy when I could’ve sworn the asshole doesn’t know the emotion.
It’s because of the alcohol, isn’t it?
Also, why the fuck does it ache behind my rib cage?
Maybe I should have myself checked, because this shit is seriously disturbing.
His smile disappears as soon as it appeared and I want to shove my hand inside his throat and drag it out. Take a picture this time and keep it forever.
“Are you going to say something or are you just going to stand there and stare at me like a creep?” I ask, using the words he’s often thrown my way.
He purses his lips. Doesn’t feel so good, does it, prick?
“Just tell me…did you have a thing with Annika?”
“What the fuck? She’s like a fetus.” I narrow my eyes. “Why are you asking? You better not involve her in your stupid games or I’ll personally help Jeremy annihilate you.”
My blood roars at the mere thought of that. I still haven’t even forgotten about Clara, and now he wants Annika.
Nah, hell no.
Fuck that.
I’ll strangle the fuck out of him.
“No, no,” he says in a bit of a rush. “She’s too young and I don’t… I don’t like anyone who’s barely legal.”
His eyes shine brightly and I get closer, trying to read him. “You know I’m going to be twenty soon, right?”
That smile nearly makes another breakthrough and I catch myself sucking in my breath to see it, but he suppresses it in a typical asshole move. “You’re still way younger than me.”
“Way? It’s only three years.”
“And a half.”
“And a half. Jesus. We’re still in the same damn generation. You need to chill for a bit, my dude.”
He frowns, his lips pushing forward—fucking adorable. “I’m not your dude.”