Not unless you counted my client, Stewart. She was the closest thing I had to an Army friend. But even though I liked and respected her, even though I felt close to her, I couldn’t really claim her as a friend. As Mali liked to remind us, clients were not our friends.
I turned on the hot water and rinsed out a few shot glasses just for something to do. I was glad Austin didn’t see me. He would have made some crack about my being responsible. It wouldn’t have been a compliment. God, it was so weird having him back, being at my dad’s, being surrounded by all these people. No doubt about it: this was Austin’s world, and I was only visiting.
I wasn’t the same person as I was before he left, though. It felt good to remind myself of that. And Austin, as much as he gathered people around him, he latched onto them, too. Which was risky in his case, because he was often the one to run, like our mother. And he often left broken hearts behind, also like her.
I walked over to Kael, Austin, and Mendoza.
“Another?” Mendoza asked.
“No way.” I shook my head and held up my hand, the universal symbol for no, thanks.
My stomach still burned as the tequila settled inside me. Mixing vodka and tequila was definitely going to have me suffering tomorrow. The flavor was strong—pretty good, but so strong compared to the cheap vodka diluted with sweet cranberry juice that I usually drank.
“Come on. Anyone?”
Austin’s eyes were on Kael, who was also saying no. He didn’t need to put his hand up or shake his head. Apparently, “no” is all the answer you need when it comes from a guy.
Austin turned to Mendoza and refilled his glass. “He’s trying to get as many shots in as possible before his wife calls for bedtime.” Austin heckled him.
By the way Mendoza smiled when my brother teased him, I could see their bond. He was a nice guy, this Mendoza. I could feel it. It was never easy to predict the people I would meet through my twin, because he never had a type. Soldiers were usually involved, but that could be more of a geographical thing. Mostly strays. Mostly friendly. But every pack had a few wild cards.
“Well, she did let him come out this week,” another male voice taunted. I turned around to see the guy in the Bottoms Up! T-shirt holding his shot glass in a way that was slightly menacing. He had a square face, tiny lips, and a bad crew cut.
Mendoza laughed still, but it didn’t reach his eyes. Not like it did when he had joked with Austin. The guy in the T-shirt snickered, pointing a Bud Light bottle at Mendoza. “How many kids you got now, anyway?” This question was delivered with a straight face.
“Three,” Mendoza replied, humorless now. Something shifted in the room. I could feel it. Kael stiffened next to me. Austin inched closer to the two jerks.
“Three? That’s it? I thought I saw you driving out of the commissary with like ten—”
“You’re not funny, Jones. Neither are you, Dubrowski. Comedy’s not your thing. Now move along or get out,” Austin snapped, pointing his chin toward the door. His eyes may have been glassy, but he was fully present. He wasn’t having any of their shit.
The room was silent, except for the obnoxious intro music to the video game that was playing on a loop in the background.
“Chill, we’re leaving anyway,” Bottoms Up! said.
No one made a sound as Jones and Dubrowski set their beers on the counter, opened the back door, and left. Mendoza and Austin stared at each other for a second. I tried not to look, but I caught a glimpse of it.
“Who were those guys?” I asked Austin when the door shut.
“They’re in my new company,” Mendoza answered. “I thought they were cool and felt bad because they’re so young and just got home and don’t have any family here, you know?”
“Quit being so fucking nice!” Austin slapped Mendoza on the back and we all laughed. “See where it gets you? Now let’s have a drink and not waste any more time or tequila on those pricks.”
“This isn’t any old tequila, my friends.” Mendoza held up the bottle. “It’s an A?ejo, aged to perfection. Smooth as butter.” He showed me the label and I nodded, reading what I could as he watched me, before moving it to Kael.
A?ejo or not, I knew I shouldn’t drink much more. Even with my mother’s tolerance for all vices, I could tell the alcohol was settling into my bloodstream. My cheeks were red—I could feel them.
But Kael was less blurry somehow.
You know those moments when someone suddenly looks different to you? Like you swipe and a filter covers the picture? Everything about them becomes a little deeper in color, a little more vibrant?
Kael was leaning against the counter in my dad’s kitchen of all places, answering trivial questions from my brother, when it all started to change. There was something about watching him there with Austin, the way he was standing with his back straight, his eyes a little more wild than usual. He was still the definition of composure, but there was something emanating from him in that moment.
Something strong and dark. I had to see more.
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
“Martin, where you from?”
“Atlanta area. You?” Kael took a drink of his beer. And then another. I remembered that he said he was from Riverdale. Easier to say Atlanta, I supposed. I liked being in on one of his secrets.
Austin crossed his arms. “All over. Fort Bragg, Texas, and a couple others. You know, Army brat.”
Kael nodded. “Yeah. I can’t imagine, man.”
The doorbell rang. “Pizza? I hope so. I haven’t eaten all day,” Austin said, disappearing from the kitchen.
“Are you hungry?” I asked Kael.
“Kind of. You?”
I nodded.
“Shall we?” I gestured toward the living room.
He nodded, smiled at me, and tossed his beer into the trash.
“Do you want another one?” I asked, looking into my almost empty cup and debating a refill.
“I’m good. One of us has to drive,” he said.
“Ah,” I said, biting my lower lip. Kael’s shoulder brushed against mine. He was standing so close to me. “I can stay here.”
His eyes widened a little.
“You can, too. There’s plenty of room.”
We had stopped walking, but I couldn’t remember when. He was looking down at me and I was looking up at him. The curve of his lashes shaded his brown eyes. The way he smelled like cinnamon. For the first time, the scent didn’t remind me of anything except him. My brain was short-circuiting, not connecting thought with my tongue.
“I mean, you don’t have to stay here. You can use my car, or an Uber. Whatever. I was just suggesting because I’m obviously not driving, and your car—” Kael leaned toward me. I had to work hard to catch my breath.
“I’ll get another beer,” he told me in a whisper. He paused there, so close to my mouth, that the bottom of my stomach ached.
He moved away, casually, and grabbed for another beer. I swallowed, blinking.
Did I think he was going to kiss me?
I so did.
That had to be why I was breathing like I had run up a flight of stairs.
I gathered myself as quickly as I could.
“Uh, yeah. Me too,” I said, voice hoarse and audibly awkward. I pulled open the freezer door to grab some ice. The cold air felt so good against my hot face. I let it roll over me for a few seconds before I filled up my cup.