“Okay, fine, I’ll help.” The words tumbled out of him before he could think through what agreeing to working with Sophie would really mean.
But they had come out, and he realized that he couldn’t easily take them back. Sophie’s whole face lit up with pure relief, and she clapped with all the enthusiasm she had.
Dash was close enough to cover her hands with his. “No clapping, though.”
She stared at their hands for a beat, and he realized how warm his were when compared to the coolness of her skin.
“You got it, boss.” Sophie took her hands back from his, and she glanced at her palms before meeting his gaze again.
“Don’t call me boss,” he added. “That’s weird.” Weird in that his dick seemed to kind of like it. Which was when he remembered that he was still only wearing boxers. He readjusted his stance and put the bag of bagels in front of him for an added buffer.
Sophie tightly smiled and, perhaps sensing that Dash might change his mind, turned away from him with a nod. He was relieved as he watched her pad back toward her house. What the hell was he thinking? His whole world was meant to be routine, boring, and singularly focused on staying the course. But now, not only had he agreed to help Sophie, he was going to have to rely on her as well.
Dash’s thoughts spun like unwieldy clay on a pottery wheel as he drove his cherry-red Volvo P1800 to Chris’s house. The car was a birthday gift his dad had bought him—gifts were his dad’s only real way of showing affection—because Roger Moore had driven one in a James Bond movie. The car was more his dad’s flashy, old-Hollywood style than Dash’s. But still…even he couldn’t deny how gorgeous she was as he removed the tarp. She was all shiny and round with smooth edges. And he’d lovingly cared for his car since the day he got her eighteen years ago.
Chris only lived a few blocks away, but with the windows down, the wind from the short drive slapped Dash across the face in a necessary and helpful way. So by the time he parked, his jitters had faded and he felt refreshed.
When he rang the doorbell, Chris answered with Luna on his hip. The baby seemed to assess Dash, her gaze more than a little skeptical. “Is she mad at me?” Dash asked.
“Don’t take it personally. Mira calls her discerning.” Chris opened the door wide, and Dash stepped in. Their house pre-newborn had always been a little messy, and now it was the same level of mess, plus a bonus smattering of toys.
Dash nodded to Chris. “The FaceTime calls didn’t do that beard justice, man.”
“I have a beard?” Chris, who was usually clean-shaven, now had thick and scraggly facial hair.
Dash held out his hands to take Luna. She glared back but didn’t protest when Dash lifted her.
Chris shook out his arms. “She’s twelve pounds. It shouldn’t hurt this much.”
“I work out for an hour and get sore. You’re lifting all day.” Dash spoke to Chris but kept his eyes on Luna. Her little fingers found the collar of his cotton shirt and tugged.
Chris patted Dash on the back and grabbed a baby carrier from the bar stool at the kitchen island. “You’re going to a meeting.”
Dash frowned, both at Luna’s Hulkish grip on his shirt and Chris’s words. “I came over to help—”
“She naps like a pro in this thing.” He strapped the carrier on Dash and nestled Luna inside of it, all before Dash could get out another word of protest. “If she wakes up, I’ve got diapers, a bottle, and formula in here. And you have my cell. Just call if you need me.” Chris picked up a bag from the counter and eased it onto Dash’s back.
Dash had been in the door for less than five minutes, but he had an infant strapped to his front, a backpack on, and he was, apparently, about to head out to a meeting. What the hell was happening?
“I can’t bring a baby to AA.” Though, Dash already had a hand on Luna’s back and was lightly bouncing on instinct to try to soothe her.
“Of course you can.” Chris opened a bag of avocados and gave one a squeeze to test if it was ripe. “It’s just down the block. Now go, because I have big plans to put this bad boy on some focaccia, then crash.”
Dash wanted to protest, but one flicker of Chris’s appreciative smile stopped him. And then, when he looked down to Luna, she’d already fallen asleep against his chest. He wasn’t about to wake the sleeping baby.
So he left and started to walk toward the AA meeting. This was the same spot where he’d met Chris, and where they’d gone every Tuesday. He hadn’t been to a meeting in six months because he felt secure without one. And not needing to go into that building had felt like an accomplishment. Because if he didn’t need a roomful of people to be accountable to, then maybe he could stay sober on his own.
So when he got to the building, instead of slowing down he just kept walking. He thought he’d circle the block, then come back. But he continued straight down Melrose.
Luna shifted slightly against him, and he gently rubbed his hand along her back through the fabric of the carrier. They’d been on a walk for almost an hour: past the designer-clothing shops, trendy bars, and late-afternoon traffic. They’d strolled right by the iconic pink wall where tourists came to pose for photos, and the enormous blue, green, and red Legolike exterior of the Pacific Design Center. He realized he should turn around and head back before Luna got restless, but when he did, he nearly collided with a person in front of him.
“Sorry. Excuse me,” Dash said.
He looked up and saw two fortysomething women, one with long, dark hair and a phone in her hand, the other holding a purse that contained a tiny dog.
“You were in that movie, right?” The phone was eye-level with him, and she was clearly filming.
He didn’t respond, but he put a protective hand against Luna’s back. He sometimes did get recognized, and he didn’t mind when people remembered him, necessarily. He just didn’t love when they started filming without his consent.
“This guy was in a movie?” the one with the dog asked.
“Yeah, the sad one where they go to Coachella and fall off the Ferris wheel?”
“Oh, I hated that one.” Even the dog barked, almost as if in agreement.
Dash had been nominated for an Independent Spirit Award for Best Actor for that film, We All Fall Down, but he’d keep that little nugget of trivia to himself.
“And his brother is—”
“Sorry.” He sidestepped away from them. His older brother was, by all accounts, an actual celebrity. Whereas Dash had mostly performed in indie movies, Reece had blockbusters to his IMDb credits.
“Why are you so short?” the one with the dog asked loudly.
“Angeluhh.” The other woman extended her friend’s name and laughed.
Yes, he was kind of short, but he wasn’t altogether in the mood for discussing biology, and genetics, and how those things worked to determine a person’s height. This was why he didn’t love going out. Whether people recognized him or his famous family didn’t really matter. They always seemed to have an opinion and weren’t afraid to share what they had to say because, to them, he wasn’t a person with feelings, he was an object for public consumption.