“The sitter couldn’t come and help today so I don’t have anyone to watch the girls if we go out on the track.” He chases after his mini-monsters and wraps an arm around each of them, securing their tiny bodies to his side.
I planned for us to race two older F1 cars. Lukas loved karting when we were younger, and he remains an avid fan of my racing career despite my crappy evading techniques. A lack of a sitter throws a kink in my plan. The McCoy crew can’t watch two kids below the age of five because it’s a safety hazard and all.
I text the next best thing, knowing she’ll save my ass. A few minutes later, Sophie barrels into the pit garage, rocking a beers not tears shirt with ripped jeans and Nikes. Her blonde hair hangs loosely around her, layers framing her flushed face. Stunning without trying.
God, I need to get a handle on myself.
“I heard someone needs a babysitter.” She drops a huge bag on the garage floor. A few loose crayons and snacks roll out.
My brother glares at Sophie. “What qualifications do you have with kids?”
I run a palm down my face at my brother’s formalities because his touch with females is long gone. “Would it kill you to start with a ‘Hi, who are you?’”
Sophie takes his gruff attitude with grace. “Besides the fact that I’m cool and am two feet taller than them? Nothing. But I think the kids will love me.”
Her personality brings a grin to my face.
“Oh, and I brought snacks because I know bribes work well.” She flashes me a telling smile.
I laugh. Kaia eyes Sophie curiously while Elyse goes up to her and runs a chubby hand across the ripped holes in Sophie’s jeans.
“You have holes. Are you homeless? We take her home, Daddy?”
My eyes widen. Not hard to guess where Elyse gets her bluntness from.
Sophie lets out a cackle. “No, tiny human. It’s called fashion. And what about you?” Sophie kneels next to Kaia on the floor. Elyse follows behind, staring with wide eyes.
“Prinzessin Rapunzel?”
I erupt from laughter at Kaia’s question. Since I’ve been a grade-A dick with my nieces, I forgot how funny and honest kids are.
“It doesn’t take a genius to guess what she said.” Sophie smiles.
“Sei nicht sprechen Deutsch.” I shake my head at Kaia who switches to English as she talks to Elyse. Sophie looks at me with wonder, and I can’t help smiling at her.
“I haven’t heard you speak German before.”
I raise my brows. “You think it’s sexy?”
“I refuse to answer that.” She hides her laugh with a cough before addressing the kids. “Anyway, I’m not Rapunzel but we can watch her on YouTube. Your daddy is going to go have some fun while we hang out together. Don’t tell him, but we’re going to have a better time.”
Kaia and Elyse each grab one of Sophie’s hands and they spread out on the McCoy floor, no longer paying us any attention.
I can’t help the way my heart clenches at watching Sophie with my nieces. An unsolicited image of her hanging out with a kid who looks like me flashes through my mind. It’s a complete mindfuck out of nowhere. Since I don’t know what the hell to make of it, I pretend the thought never happened.
Seems easier than admitting I’m growing attached to Sophie.
I show my brother the two cars I picked out for us to drive, leaving behind Sophie and the girls, wanting to put some distance between us.
Lukas runs a hand across the glossy paint, smiling at the attendant who passes him the flame-retardant gear and a helmet. “I’m surprised you invited me here. You’ve been so busy over the past two years; I didn’t think you’d have time.”
“I thought some sibling time was overdue. It’s been a long time.” I take a good look at my brother, facing him head-on for the first time in too long. Lukas looks healthy, his eyes no longer sunken in or his skin uncharacteristically pale. His smiles reach his eyes. They have a sheen to them I haven’t seen in some time, no longer plagued with the hauntings of his past.
I’m envious of him. For the first time, I’m the one being held back while he moves forward in life. It’s a sick cosmic joke.
“I miss you. You can call me every now and then, you know? It’s not like I do much besides work and take care of the girls.”
Guilt scratches away at my nonchalance. “I should. I’ve been an idiot, and I’m sorry.”
“No need for apologies. Just be better. You’ve skipped out on Kaia’s birthday for the past two years and it’s so obvious to everyone why you do it. I’m not mad at you, I’m just concerned.”