“Why are you crying?” A clear voice rang out, startling me.
I spun around, only now noticing the young man sitting on a rock a short distance away, an elbow resting on his raised knee. How could I have missed his aura, which pulsed in the air? Strong and warm, as bright as a cloudless noon. His dark eyes gleamed from beneath sweeping brows, and there was a radiance to his skin like it had been glazed by the sun. His long black hair was gathered up into a tail, spilling over his blue brocade robe, which was fastened around his waist with a silk belt. A yellow jade ornament swung from his sash, its tassel reaching to his knees as he jumped down and strode toward me. As he returned my gaze unreservedly, heat crept up my neck.
“It can’t be that hard to clean some dirty clothes,” he remarked, staring at the bundle in my hands.
“How would you know? It’s a lot harder than it looks,” I retorted. “And I would never cry over this. It’s just . . . I miss my family.” The moment the words slipped out, I bit my tongue. It was the truth, but what had possessed me to speak of such things to a stranger?
“If you miss your family, just go back to them. Why would you leave? Especially for work such as this.” He gestured at the sodden garment dismissively, the corners of his lips curving up.
Was he mocking me? I’d had my fill of such treatment today. His arrogance, the careless way he spoke, snapped my frayed nerves. What did he know of my troubles? Who was he to judge?
I cast a pointed look at his finery. “Not everything is that simple. Not everyone is as fortunate to do as they please. And I’ll take no advice from someone who has never worked a day in his life.”
His smile vanished. “Your attitude is rather insolent for an attendant.” He sounded more curious than offended.
“Being an attendant doesn’t mean I don’t have my pride. The work I do is not a reflection of who I am.” Turning my back to him, I scrubbed at the cloak with more vigor than before. I had wasted too much time already; Lady Meiling would be furious if I took too long—which would mean another night of kneeling on the cold, hard ground.
There was no reply and I thought he had left, tired of teasing me. Yet I twisted around to find him still there.
“Looking for me?” he laughed. As a heated denial rose in my throat, he added quickly, “Are you from the Golden Lotus Mansion?”
“How did you know?” I rose to my feet, wondering if he was an acquaintance of Lady Meiling.
He leaned forward then, his outstretched hand grazing the side of my head. I recoiled and swatted him away, knocking out the brass lotus pin from my hair. Before I could move, he bent down and picked it up from the grass. Without a word he wiped the pin against his sleeve, sliding it back into my hair. Dirt smeared his robe, which seemed not to bother him in the least.
“Thank you,” I said, finding my voice. No, he could not be my mistress’s friend. None of them would ever help an attendant.
“Your pin,” he explained. “Don’t all the attendants from there wear the same one?”
I nodded as I sat down, plunging the cloak into the stream again, cursing inwardly at the stubborn ink. Instead of leaving as I expected, he settled down beside me, his legs dangling over the edge of the bank.
“Why are you so unhappy?”
It had been so long since I had someone to talk to, someone willing to listen. My caution—so carefully cultivated here—thawed in the spark of his warmth. “Each morning when I awaken, I don’t want to open my eyes,” I began haltingly, unused to unburdening myself.
“Maybe you should sleep more if you’re so tired.”
He grinned but I scowled at him, in no mood for humor. How silly I was to think he might have cared. I grabbed the cloak and bucket to leave, as he scrambled to his feet.
“I’m sorry,” he said stiffly, as though unaccustomed to apologizing. “I shouldn’t have made fun of you when you were trying to tell me something important.”
“No, you shouldn’t have.” Yet there was no rancor in my voice; his apology had blunted my resentment. It was heartfelt and kind, both of which I had encountered little of since leaving my home.
“If you’re still willing to tell me, I would be honored to listen.” He inclined his head with unexpected formality.
I snorted. “I would hardly describe this as an honor, but I appreciate your clumsy attempt at flattery.”
“Clumsy?” It was his turn to scowl. “Did it work?” he asked, unrepentantly.
I could not suppress my smile. “Unfortunately.”