Someone thinks they see something move; shots, a riot of fireworks, sound out loud enough to cause immediate ringing in the whole team’s ears. Later, having recovered evidence, detectives will claim in their report that several officers saw a figure in the shadows hoisting a sword with both hands.
I see this figure clearly in my mind’s eye, but, in truth, none of the bullets fired that night find purchase: they ricochet off the walls and blow through cardboard VHS cases, but they don’t hurt anybody who wasn’t already past hurt.
* * *
MY NAME IS GAGE CHANDLER. I’ve been here for almost a year. I moved into this house to tell a story: to employ my usual and usually successful methods to the task. To inhabit the carapace of the crime scene, to retrace the steps of the killer in order to better know his path. I have spoken with my neighbors, and with police, and with any surviving relatives willing to speak with me. I went to the high school and talked with the teachers; I talked with a caseworker, Marsha Gaines, who worked with Seth. Anyone who knew Derrick and could still be located, I have found, making contact and never once taking no for an answer: I’ve charmed people when I could, playing up Hollywood friends when I had to, always finding a way to get them to talk. I did this with everybody. I gained access to police files and court records. I reenacted scenes I wasn’t present for. I’ve unrolled butcher-block for days, drawing maps and diagrams and flowcharts to show me how things looked before I came here, and to light a path toward my rebuilding of the fortress that stood here for a brief time before it was made new, and then made new again, cloaked in fresh paint by people who’d like to erase 1986 from this neighborhood’s memory. I have surrounded myself with artifacts to keep the earlier days of this place vivid before me, to push back against the advancing crust of renovation. I have conjured the past in order to know more of the present. I know what happened here, and how what happened here differs in several important ways from the fragment Ashton unearthed for me, and what will happen if those differences are brought back out into the light. What I’ve learned contradicts the account I first read, which I understand to have sprung from the need for a certain sort of telling, a hunger for known quantities. I have combed every inch of the ground where something dreadful happened some years back, and it is time now for me to tell the story I was sent here to tell.
I don’t want to do this, and I’m not going to do this.
2
The White Witch
1.
YOU BUY EVERYDAY WITCHCRAFT at Jordano’s on impulse one day: a Sunday, your shopping day. You plan to cook for yourself tonight and every night this week until Friday, when you’ll treat yourself to some restaurant with a view of the bay—maybe you’ll invite a friend out, unwinding at the end of a long week, or maybe not. From here, Friday is a world away.
Idling happily through the busy supermarket, you pick out small yellow potatoes and bagged carrots from the produce section, then find some canned tuna you’ll fix with noodles and sauce during the week. You get a loaf of bread, and some plum jam; at the deli counter, you ask the high school student in the smudged white smock to slice you a quarter pound of pastrami. He does a slapstick pantomime routine with the slicer as he works, pretending it’s harder to operate than it really is, grimacing once as though hurt, watching your face over his shoulder to see how you’ll react. You play along, opening your eyes wide and raising a free hand in mock-panic. He cracks up. When students see their teachers walking around in the real world, it always seems funny to them.
“Didn’t figure you for the pastrami type!” he says when he hands you the package in white butcher paper, wrapped and taped on the seal with its price written in red grease pencil.
“No?” you say. “What type am I?” He scrutinizes you theatrically, squinting with one eye, pretending to inspect your face from several angles. You place his name: Scott. Scott from composition class last year. He’ll be a senior now.
“Turkey on whole wheat,” he says. You laugh together, on equal ground or something like it. It’s amazing how they grow up right in front of you: kids when you meet them, little men when they leave. From the freezer case, you get fish sticks and a quart of strawberry ice cream; and then, waiting in line, you begin your weekly dance of resistance with the pocket-sized booklets nested in the rack above the chewing gum: Prophecies and Predictions; 50 Different Casseroles!; Strange Tragedies of the Silver Screen. And then, next to these, Everyday Witchcraft, the one that’s caught your eye today because its front cover seems so weird: a picture of a white cat sitting next to a crystal ball on a table draped in black velvet cloth—felt, most likely. The scene clearly staged in a photographer’s studio somewhere. It’s funny, in an out-of-place way. You drop it casually into the basket, as if it had been the last thing on your shopping list: fish sticks, ice cream, book of spells. It looks pretty hilarious among the vegetables and cold cuts. You smile, not too big, waiting your turn in line.