She laughed.
“I’m sure,” she said.
He shook his head.
“And it’s not like I’m not used to being the only one—I grew up here, after all. But it was different there. The week before I quit, my boss made a crack at a meeting about a neighborhood where I’d met a friend for lunch that day. ‘Look at you, making a trip to the ghetto! I’ve always wanted to go to that place—if I go, I’ll have to take you with me for safety!’？”
“Wow,” Margot said. “Is that why you quit?”
He shrugged.
“That played a role, yeah.” That was partly true, he supposed.
“I know how working at a place like that can be,” she said. “It’s demoralizing.”
He’d told her only a tiny piece of the story. But she’d gotten that right.
“Yeah,” he said. “Demoralizing is exactly the right word. For . . . so much that happened there.” He laughed. “At least I managed not to quit until after the bulk of my options vested.”
She turned, then, to face him, though he could barely see her eyes in the dark.
“I’m glad you got out,” she said. “I’m also glad you waited until your options vested, for your own sake.”
He grinned.
“It means that now I have the freedom to do things like this.” He gestured to the vineyards lining the road.
Which was both true and not true. He had a lot of money saved up, he probably didn’t have to get any kind of job for at least a year if he was careful. He could do things like sublet his old place, move back to Napa, get a job working at a winery. But he still felt guilty, embarrassed, about what he’d done. And hadn’t done.
“Why this?” she asked. “Not just why Noble, but why any winery job, when you could be doing anything at all?” She sat back against the seat. “I understand if you don’t want to answer that, I am your boss, but I truly don’t mind whatever your answer is.”
He shrugged. “Mostly, it was just an impulse. My best friend convinced me to move back up here, for kind of a break, while I figure out what to do next, but once I got to Napa, I realized I’d be bored as hell here without something to do all day. I’ve always been interested in wine, the science of it kind of fascinates me, so it felt like a fun option. And—please forgive me for this—I thought working at a winery would be easy. Don’t worry, I no longer think that.”
She laughed. “What did it for you, that bachelorette party on Thursday, or the eight cases of wine you had to load into a Honda Civic on Friday?”
He shook his head.
“Neither of those things—finding all of those bottles on Tuesday! Taylor just pulled them out, like they’re color coded or something, where I had to read labels and try to remember vintages and varietals and . . . this is a lot harder than I thought.”
Margot laughed again. Fuck, he needed to stop making her laugh. That low, throaty laugh of hers did things to him. It made him feel like it was a private laugh, just for him. That laugh of hers had been one of the things that had first drawn him to her at the bar that night. He had to stop thinking about that night.
“Can I tell you a secret?” she said to him.
“Always,” he said. He shouldn’t have said that, but he couldn’t help it. Luckily, she didn’t really react.
“It’s a lot harder than I thought it would be, too,” she said. “The stuff you do, I mean—the stuff we do, I guess. The business stuff I knew would be hard, I was prepared for that, and the wine stuff—even though I’m not that involved in it, I know some about it just because of Elliot, though a lot of it is still a mystery to me. But I figured the tasting room stuff, the customers, the tours, all of that, I figured it would be easy. How hard could it be, just serving some wine to some tourists who want to spend their money? The answer is: very.”
“Very!” he said, and this time they both laughed.
“Thank you for telling me that,” he said. “I was feeling kind of like an asshole—I grew up here, I should have known that nothing about this business was easy. But I always thought of the winery people as the rich people, you know? It all seemed so snooty. I thought they had an easy life. I was wrong about that, too.”
He was glad they were talking in this normal, relaxed way with each other. At work, after that first day, it hadn’t been awkward between them, but it had been almost worse. Margot had looked at him, talked to him, like he was anyone else in the winery. She’d smiled easily, she’d been businesslike and matter-of-fact, she’d looked neither at him nor away from him in a way that would seem unusual. He’d hated it. It wasn’t like he wanted her to be unprofessional or anything like that—he’d just wanted some sign that she thought about him like he thought about her.