He smiled. “So you showed up naked to his room. And then what happened?”
Actually, sharing this part might cheer Matt up. “I walked in on him and Rachel.”
Mason spit out his sip of hot chocolate. “Really? Having sex?”
“No, she was…um…giving him…you know…”
“Head?” He cocked his eyebrow up. “You can say it you know. Oral. Sucking his cock. Blowing…”
“Cut it out, Mason,” Matt said.
My face had to be bright red. “Yeah, that.” I didn’t want to say it out loud. I’d never even done it before. “Everyone completely freaked out and I ended up running through the lobby. But I was in my underwear. I’m pretty sure only a handful of students saw me.” How had the rumors spread so quickly?
“This is amazing,” Mason said. “What did James do when he saw you come in his room?”
“He said my name. And Rachel…bit him.”
Even Matt laughed this time.
“Serves him right,” Mason said. “Fucking asshole.”
I didn’t laugh. I didn’t find it funny at all. James had been kind and sweet. I didn’t feel comfortable telling Mason the rest of the story. I wanted to tell Matt in private. But I wanted to fix what I’d help break too. “James helped me,” I said. “I think this crazy misunderstanding about Rachel…you could all clear it up, don’t you think? If you just sat down and talked.”
“What do you think I’ve been trying to do the past week?” Matt asked.
“I know, but…”
“The Hunters are dead to us,” Mason said. “We tried to fight for them. And all they wanted to do was fight us.”
It wasn’t just them being stubborn. They were hurt. I looked at Matt. He had tried to fight for James. He’d tried to look after him. He’d worried and fretted over the blackmail because he cared about his friend. And all James wanted was to punch him in the face.
But James and I were friends now. Maybe I could convince him to try to fix things.
Matt lifted up my hot chocolate. “Aren’t you even going to try it?”
I took the mug from him. It tasted just like my mom’s. I sat in their warm kitchen, listening to the two of them laugh. And I hoped that I could stay. No one ever laughed at the Pruitts’ apartment. I hadn’t felt this at home since I’d lived with Kennedy.
But I had a feeling Mr. Caldwell wouldn’t let me stay. And I understood why. I was a Pruitt. I was toxic. I laughed along with the Caldwell brothers, but I kept thinking about the fact that the hot chocolate always felt warm in my hands. No matter how much time went by. And I wondered if it was because my hands were permanently cold. Cold to the bone. Just like the Pruitts’。 Was Mr. Caldwell right about me?
Chapter 8
Sunday
I sat down on the edge of Matt’s four-poster bed. The last time I’d been in his room, Rob had pushed me inside and locked the door. I’d thought I was about to get the life sucked out of me by a vampire. But today I was just waiting to see if I’d get my hopes sucked out. Any minute now, I expected Mr. Caldwell to come through those doors and kick me out of his house.
“What’s going through your head?” Matt asked as he sat down beside me.
I looked over to his closet. The one I’d stood in for what felt like an eternity, waiting for Matt to come back after he’d pushed me into it. He’d spent the rest of the night with Isabella, instead of with me. Isabella. My stomach twisted in knots as I looked up at Matt’s eager face. “What if your dad’s right? About…me.”
Matt’s eyebrows lowered. “He didn’t say anything about you.”
“I have Pruitt blood in my veins,” I said and looked down at my hands. “You told me what that meant. That the Pruitts’ whole family is a disease…”
“I didn’t mean you.”
“You called them toxic. I’m them, Matt.”
“You’re not…”
“I want her to die.” I looked back up at him. “When she drove away in her stupid limo, that’s what kept me going. I wanted to get back at her. But really…I think I’d be happy if she died. I’m a monster. I’m a Pruitt.” I felt big tears roll down my cheeks.
“You’re not a monster.” He grabbed both sides of my face. “Baby.”
My heart ached whenever he called me that.
“Look at me.”
My eyes locked with his.