He offers me a biro, and I nab a napkin, settling down to do what I do best: making lists. Sipping my wine, I start bullet-pointing my next moves.
First of all, I need to get back to work. I’m currently paying a warehouse courier service to quality-check, package, and ship all of my old orders, but I can’t rely on them forever. Something tells me truckers aren’t the best at checking lace hems for loose threads.
I’ll probably have a bunch of angry ex-fans demanding refunds, so I need to go and deal with that. I need to make a social media statement.
And I need to find a new apartment. ASAP.
“Excuse me,” a low male voice says at my side. “This seat taken?”
“Yes,” I say coldly, not looking up from the napkin.
“… are you sure?”
“Yes.”
“But—”
I cut a glare at the man. He’s youngish, in his twenties, with a boyish face and red cheeks. He smiles at me hopefully. “For God’s sake,” I bite out. “I’m not interested. I don’t want you to sit next to me. I don’t want you to buy me a drink. I don’t want to have a torrid hookup in an airport’s public toilet. So piss off.”
He blinks. “I’m not hitting on you,” he says slowly. “I’m here with my friends, and we don’t have enough chairs. Are you using this one, or can I take it to our table?” He points behind him. I follow his thumb, spotting the rowdy-looking table of guys in football strips, chatting loudly and swilling back pints.
I close my eyes. I am such a massive prick. “Sorry,” I mutter. “Bad day. Yeah, take the chair. I’m sorry.”
He scowls at me, grabbing the stool and lifting it away. “Bitch,” he mumbles under his breath as he heads back to his table.
My stomach sinks as I watch his retreating back. How is it possible that I’m now even worse at talking to men? After six weeks of fake-dating, I’ve somehow gone backwards.
I grimace. I don’t want to think about the guys. It’s their stupid advice that got me triple-rejected and bullied by every social media platform on the internet, for God’s sake. I’m on my own now.
And it’s time I faced what’s really happening.
Deciding to take the bull by the horns, I pull my phone back out of my pocket and go straight to the Twitter app. Bracing myself, I open up the notifications page — and stare as the messages pour through in real-time. They’re scrolling down my screen, too fast for me to read.
@HerTreatLayla LISTEN TO @ThreeSingleGuys nooooow pleeeease
If @HerTreatLayla doesn’t message in before the show ends i’m giving up on love
@HerTreatLayla The guys are live! Go listen!!
@HerTreatLayla this is the cutest thing ever omg. #givethemasecondchance #threesingleguyspityparty #GetLaylaListening
I frown. ‘Get Layla Listening?’ What the Hell is that? I click on the hashtag, and a ton more tweets come up. #GetLaylaListening has been used over a hundred times in the past hour. I scan through the tweets. They’re all messages to me, pretty much begging me to listen to the guys’ latest podcast episode.
For God’s sake.
I really don’t want to, but I follow orders and go to my podcast app, opening up the homepage for Three Single Guys. The top episode is entitled EPISODE 449: THE APOLOGY TOUR. The little red circle flashing next to the episode name shows the boys are currently recording live.
I stare at my phone, hesitating.
I don’t want to listen. Judging by my notifications, this ‘apology tour’ is aimed at me, and frankly, I don’t want to hear the guys’ side of the story. I don’t want to give them a chance to worm back into my life. I don’t want to forgive them.
But this isn’t just about them. It’s about me. They’re talking about me, discussing me in front of tens of thousands of strangers, affecting my business. I need to know what they’re saying. It doesn’t matter how scared I am. I’m not a tiny teenage girl anymore, eating her lunch in a toilet cubicle, overhearing the girls in my year gossip about me. I’m not that person anymore. I don’t know when I became a coward, but I am sick of it.
I can’t hide from this just because I’m scared. I won’t.
Swallowing back my sigh, I down the rest of my drink, shove in my earbuds, and stab the Play button.
SEVENTY-FOUR
LAYLA
Immediately, Zack’s gruff, scratchy voice fills my ears. Tears prick the back of my eyes, and I grip the smooth bar counter as memories wash over me. Him cuddling me on the couch. Him dragging me onto his lap to kiss him. Him spinning me around while we dance. God, I miss him so much.