As luck would have it, tonight is all about the other man in my life. A celebration of Dad’s contribution to media, his accomplishments, and the empire he built in our corner of the universe. A universe he’s silently and painstakingly pointed out exists without a place for Easton Crowne.
With every day that ticks by, it’s become clear Easton is right. My father is at war with my husband, and it’s tearing us apart.
My bitterness toward Dad continues to build as I continue to wait next to the limo, too timid to walk through the front door of my own family home due to his ill-treatment.
Ironically, Dad insisted we arrive at the gala as a family, which for the moment, also feels like a lie. As I try to temper myself and hold it together, Dad exits the house looking gorgeous in a perfectly fitted tux with my mother in tow. Mom approaches, looking stunning in a glittering black gown that hugs her tiny frame. Her freshly colored, curly, dark hair is pulled up and pinned, her makeup flawless. “Baby, it’s chilly out here. Why didn’t you come inside?”
Because it’s even colder inside.
“Mom, you look…incredible,” I dodge her question. She reciprocates by side-stepping my compliment.
“And you look absolutely gorgeous, my sweetheart. The dress is perfect on you. Do you like it?”
“Love it, thank you,” I reply, grateful she went to the trouble to dress me. Most days, I feel like I’m on autopilot, simply going through the motions. Mom has tried her best to help me through it, taking long rides with me and simply listening. She’s been amazing in the boss department as well. Though my schedule has been grueling, if I wasn’t being constantly tasked, I’m not sure I would know my own direction. Inside I’m still fighting for the woman I dreamt I’d be—the one with her head straight and ever-changing goals within reach. Every day, I’m fighting for the bride I became, blooming rapidly under my husband’s loving gaze.
I glance over to Dad as he locks their front door, and Mom’s gaze trails mine. It’s then I feel the shift in energy. Seeing the light in her eyes start to dim, I muster a smile. “It’s going to be an incredible night.”
“No more bullshit,” she reminds me, warily eyeing Dad as he approaches.
“It will be,” I assure. In reply, she dips her chin noncommittally. Dad reaches us at the end of the walk before wordlessly and gently ushering Mom into the car. Hoping to create a small window of truce for tonight, for both their sakes, I speak up.
“Hey, Daddy?”
Dad tenses before dismissing the driver, who’s patiently holding the open door of the limo. When the driver’s out of earshot and Dad finally lifts his violet-blue eyes to mine, I find myself on the receiving end of a tattered stare. Inside it, it’s all there—the anger, the hurt, the betrayal, and the toll it’s taking.
“I just wanted to say congratulations,” I continue, “in case I didn’t get a chance to later.” He gives me a brief dip of his chin and stands in expectation, refusing to see all I’ve done to resume the role of the responsible adult he raised. Even as he stands impatiently waiting for me to join my mother in the car, I soak in his expression, knowing that no matter how much he’s accomplished or how well pleased he is by the occasion, I might have ruined this milestone for him.
“Daddy, I-I’m sorry I hurt you,” I stutter out sincerely. His expression falters slightly before his eyes glaze over.
Now is not the time, Natalie.
“Okay. That’s all I wanted to say.” Unable to handle any more of his disappointment, I slide into the long leather bench seat opposite Mom. Averting my eyes from hers, I opt to stare out of the window as Dad slides in beside her. Within a minute of the car speeding toward the downtown hotel, a motor whirs, and I glance over to see my mother closing the privacy partition before addressing both of us.
“Okay, enough is fucking enough. I don’t care what occasion this is, Nate. Your daughter is hurting, you’re hurting, and you’re hurting her, and if you continue to ignore her pain, you won’t forgive yourself, and I won’t forgive you either. Look at her, damnit!”
“Mom—” I say, as Dad bites out at the same time.
“Addie, now is not the time.”
Clearing his throat, he unbuttons his jacket as Mom turns to him, digging her heels in.
“It’s the perfect time,” she snaps. “How in the hell are we supposed to celebrate anything as a family when we have this much space between us? A space you continue to add to every time you ignore her pain for yours.”