A bright moon can astonish, no matter how many times you have seen it.
If you were a child who loved the moon, looking at the moon will remind you of childhood.
Fatherless girls may invest the moon with a certain paternal promise.
Everyone has a father.
A vague story like “Your father died before you were born” may satisfy even a canny child for an unlikely number of years.
The truth of your paternity, discovered in adulthood, will make the lie seem retroactively ludicrous.
Publicists occasionally have flings with their movie star clients.
Discovering that you are a movie star’s daughter is not necessarily a comfort.
It is especially not a comfort when the star in question has six other children from four different marriages.
Discovering that you are a movie star’s daughter may prompt you to watch upward of sixty movies dating from the beginning of his career.
You may think, watching his movies, You don’t know I exist, but I am here.
You may think, watching his movies, I’m invisible to you, but I am here.
A sudden reconfiguration of your past can change the fit and feel of your adulthood.
It may cleave you from the mother whose single goal has been your happiness.
If your husband has transformed greatly in his own life, he will understand your transformation.
Avoid excessive self-reflection; your job is to look out, not in.
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“There you are,” whispered from behind, by your Designated Mate, suggests that he has been looking for you.
“Come,” uttered softly, may communicate a renewed wish for intimate contact.
The moon’s calm face will make you feel, in advance, that you are understood and forgiven.
The sea is audible well before you see it.
Even at night, the Mediterranean is more blue than black.
If you wish to avoid physical intimacy, the sight of a speedboat will bring relief despite the myriad problems it presents.
If no words are exchanged between your Designated Mate and the speedboat’s captain, their meeting was likely prearranged.
A man known for his cruelty may still show great care while guiding his beauty into a rocking speedboat.
He will interpret her hesitation to board as fear of falling in.
Resist the impulse to ask where you are going.
Try, when anxious, to summon up a goofy giggle.
Locate your Personal Calming Source and use it.
If your Personal Calming Source is the moon, be grateful that the moon is especially bright.
Reflect on the many reasons you can’t yet die:
You need to see your husband.
You need to have children.
You need to tell the movie star that he has a seventh child, and that she is a hero.
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The moon may appear to move, but really it is you who are moving.
At high velocity, a speedboat slams along the tops of waves.
Fear and excitement are sometimes indistinguishable.
When the captain of a boat adjusts his course to commands from your Designated Mate, he may not know where he is taking you.
If your Designated Mate keeps looking up, he’s likely using the stars for navigation.
The Mediterranean is vast enough to have once seemed infinite.