“Sure is.” I smile as I get to the row of shops in town. This place is so lovely and quaint, and I come here most afternoons to buy my food for the following day.
I walk past a hobby shop and stop and look through the window: what’s in there?
I’ll take a look, so I walk in and a bell rings over the door.
“Hello.” An elderly woman smiles.
“Hi.”
“Can I help you with anything?”
“Just looking,” I reply. I walk through the cross-stitch section and smile sadly as I look at all the patterns. My mum would have loved this shop.
When I was a teenager we used to spend hours together in the garden house, and she would do her cross-stitch and I would paint. We would laugh and talk and listen to music. I smile as I remember making her play Taylor Swift on repeat for hours and hours.
I pick up a cross-stitch pattern of a duck and I smile as I think of Elliot and his girls. Maybe I should learn how to do cross-stitch? It could be an ode to my mum. I look through all the patterns, but end up back at the ducks.
I want this one; I liked those bat-shit crazy ducks of Elliot’s. I remember the day they attacked him and it brings a smile to my face. I tuck the packet under my arm and keep looking.
“All the art supplies are marked down by fifty percent,” the old lady calls.
“Oh, thanks.” I keep walking. “I haven’t painted since high school.”
“You should start again, it’s the best therapy.” She smiles.
Hmm, I guess it could be. I mean, if I’m learning how to cross-stitch, I guess I could paint a picture too. I’m totally crap at it . . . but it would make me feel close to Mum, by association.
She always loved my paintings, said every new painting I did was her new favorite. Isn’t that what all mums say to their kids about their hideous hobbies?
I pick up a packet of paintbrushes and a starter pack of ten tubes of paint, go to the back and look through the canvases. Shit . . . these are expensive.
Did Mum really pay this much? I smile, knowing exactly why she did: so that I would sit with her while she did her cross-stitch. There was a method to her madness, after all.
I pick up a small canvas, which will be easier to fit into the bin when I fuck it up.
I take my things to the cashier, and I feel really excited for tomorrow. When I get back from the beach, I’m going to start learning how to do my cross-stitch, just like Mum. How fun.
ELLIOT
“Your paintings have arrived, Mr. Miles,” Andrew says from the door.
I look up from my computer. “What?”
“Your Harriet collection has arrived out of storage, I know how much you missed it.”
I run my hand through my hair in disgust. “Oh.” I pause.
I don’t want to be anywhere near those paintings; I left Kate for those.
All they do is remind me of what I no longer have.
My girl.
“Umm.” I pause as I try to articulate my answer. “My apologies, Andrew, can you have them delivered to my apartment in London please?”
Andrew’s face falls. “But—”
“But nothing,” I cut him off. “I don’t want them in this house.”
He frowns as he stares at me.
“That is all, Andrew,” I snap, dismissing him.
“Very well, sir.”
I inhale a shaky breath and go back to my computer.