“And?” Vikter pressed.
Eyeing the grain of the wood, I wondered exactly what she had shared with the Royal Guard to prompt this round of questions. “And I respect that—needing to do something other than relying on others to protect oneself.”
“Because of what she’s been through?”
Yes.
And no.
My respect for that—for her—was a complicated mess. “Even if she hadn’t experienced what she did with the Craven, I can still understand why someone would want to be more active in their protection and defense of those they care about.”
“Most would not, especially given who she is.”
Frustration flared. “I’m not most people.” I looked at him. “And neither are you.”
His eyes narrowed. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Come on now, Vikter.” I chuckled, shaking my head. “You think I don’t know who trained her to fight and use a bow? You did one hell of a job. She almost knocked me on my ass.”
“Obviously, not a good enough job,” he muttered. “If so, you would’ve been on your ass.”
I smiled at that. He had no idea how truly impressive that almost was. “Like I told her, I’m not going to report her to the Teermans or anyone else.”
Vikter was quiet for only a few moments. “Doesn’t make sense.”
I sighed.
“You could earn the Teermans’ favor by keeping them informed,” Vikter reasoned.
“Get in even better with them.”
Reminding myself that punching Vikter wouldn’t earn me any of those so-called favors, I said, “I have no desire to be in their good graces.”
He stood so close now that I’d feel his chest move against my arm if he breathed. “Then is it your desire to get into her good graces?”
Irritation sparked as I slowly turned to him. “Now it is I who is asking what that’s supposed to mean.”
His gaze locked with mine for several tense moments. “She is the Maiden. It’s best you not forget that.”
I knew what he was getting at, and he had every reason to remind me of that. More than he realized because I didn’t think of her as the Maiden any longer. For the last dozen or so hours, when I did think of her, I saw her as I had last night, not on the Rise but in her bedchamber, in that barely there nightgown. I saw no problem with the latter. The former, though? Not thinking of her as the Maiden? That could be problematic.
Because just like with the respect, it was a complicated mess.
“I spent the better part of the day thinking about why you would keep her secret. What you’d gain from doing so,” Vikter went on. “You know what I came up with?”
“I’m sure you’ll tell me,” I muttered.
“You’re trying to gain her trust.”
Vikter was right. I needed her trust. I wanted it, and there was a whole realm of difference between wanting and needing. And that was the third complicated mess I found myself in.
“Of course, I want her trust,” I said. “I won’t be able to do my duty if she doesn’t trust me.”
“That’s true.” Vikter faced the door. “And that’d better be the only reason you seek her trust.”
“Correct me if I’m wrong,” I said, “though I’m pretty sure I’m not. However, I do believe you said that you didn’t need to know what I was thinking for either of us to carry out our duties.”
I watched the muscle throbbing in his jaw. Smiling, I returned to staring at the door.
“You weren’t wrong,” Vikter admitted after a moment.
“I know. I rarely am.” I heard footsteps nearing from the other side, thank the gods.
“Hawke?”
“Yeah?”
“You can be right.” He moved in front of me as the door finally opened. “And still be wrong.”
FROM BLOOD AND ASH
“Because of the
gods’ Blessing, the Rise did not fall last night.” Duke Teerman shouted his lie for everyone in Masadonia and then some to hear.
I could barely stop myself from laughing my ass right off the balcony as I stood behind Penellaphe and Tawny. The Rise had held because of those who defended it, many who died doing so. Too many, I thought as I eyed the crowd below. The air was still heavy with the smoke of the funeral pyres and incense. I couldn’t even count how many wore the white of mourning or who had hung black flags from their homes.
“They reached the top!” a man yelled from below, where the throng of people stood in the light of the oil lamps and torches. “They almost made it over the Rise. Are we safe?”
“When it happens again?” Duchess Teerman replied. “Because it will happen again.”
“That will surely ease fears,” I murmured.
“The truth is not designed to ease fears,” Vikter responded just as quietly.
I smirked. “Is that why we tell lies, then?”
“And what lie has been spoken?”
he countered.
As if there was only one. “That the gods were responsible for the Rise not falling. Those who defended it are.”
“Those two things aren’t mutually exclusive,” he replied.
For a moment, I entertained the idea of picking Vikter up by the throat and tossing him off the balcony. However, I supposed that wouldn’t help me gain Penellaphe’s trust.
“The gods didn’t fail you,”
Duchess Teerman said as she walked forward, placing her hands on the waist-high railing. “We didn’t fail you. But the gods are unhappy. That is why the Craven reached the top of the Rise.”
A wave of fear swept through those below like a flood.
“We have spoken to them,” the Duchess continued with what had to be the least reassuring speech I’d ever heard in my life. Those in the crowd were growing paler by the second. “They are not pleased with recent events, here and in nearby cities. They fear that the good people of Solis have begun to lose faith in their decisions and are turning to those who wish to see the future of this great kingdom compromised.”
What a load of bullshit.
Effective bullshit, though. The crowd shouted their protests, much like the guards had last night, when Jansen had asked if they would let the Rise fail. The horses’ nervous prancing drew my attention as I scanned the crowd, spotting Kieran on horseback.
“What did you all think would happen when those who support the Dark One and plot with him are standing among you right now?” the Duke demanded. “As I speak, at this very moment, Descenters stare back at me, thrilled that the Craven took so many lives last night.”
Kieran inclined his head, and I knew he was likely struggling as much as I was, doing nothing as the Ascended spewed their ridiculous lies.
“In this very crowd, there are Descenters who pray for the day the Dark One comes,” the Duke said. And that was true. “Those who celebrated the massacre of Three Rivers and the fall of Goldcrest Manor. Look to your left and to your right, and you may see someone who helped conspire to abduct the Maiden.”
My eyes narrowed as Penellaphe shifted from one foot to the other.
“The gods hear and know all. Even what’s not spoken but resides in the heart,” the Duke said from where he stood beside his wife. “What can any of us expect? When those the gods have done all to protect, come before us, questioning the Rite?”