But occasionally
I mean that’s pretty normal right??
‘She says she’s had sex dreams,’ I said to Rooney.
‘Ask her about masturbating,’ Rooney hissed from across the room.
‘Rooney.’
‘It’s for science!’
Georgia Warr
that’s basically what we’re trying to determine
a second question – when you have a wank do you think about YOURSELF having sex?? And if so … with what gender??
rooney says the gender doesn’t matter for her Felipa Quintana
JESUS georgia what is this conversation omg
Wait Rooney thinks about being with girls??????
Georgia Warr
yeah
Felipa Quintana
Okay . . . . . . Okay interesting
Well firstly, yeah I do think about myself? Idk what else I would think about?? I guess unless you’re literally just having a wank to porn … but even then it’s like at least a little bit about you and your fantasies too And obviously I just think about girls haha … the thought of being with a guy just disgusts me I mean I am very much a lesbian. We’ve established this This is interesting though
‘She said she does think about herself having sex,’ I said.
Rooney nodded, though she’d started adjusting her hair so I couldn’t read her expression. ‘Yeah. I mean, that’s what most people do, I think.’
Georgia Warr
i won’t tell rooney this one, this is just a question from me do you fantasise about other people?? like real people? like if you get a crush or meet someone really hot, do you fantasise about having sex with them????
Felipa Quintana
Georgia how come you wanna know all this?
Are you okay??
Are you and Jason having SEX
Oh god I don’t know if I want to know Georgia Warr
calm down i’m not having sex
just trying to understand some stuff Felipa Quintana
Okay
Yeah I guess I do sometimes
Not eeeevery single hot person I meet but if I really liked someone …
I mean sometimes I just can’t help it I guess haha?
‘What are you saying to her?’ Rooney asked.
I was staring at my phone screen.
And then I chucked it across my bed.
‘This has to be a fucking joke,’ I blurted.
Rooney paused. ‘What?’
I sat up, pushing the covers off my body. ‘Everyone has to be fucking JOKING.’
‘What d’you –’
‘People are really out there just … thinking about having sex all the time and they can’t even help it?’ I spluttered. ‘People have dreams about it because they want it that much? How the – I’m losing it. I thought all the movies were exaggerating, but you’re all really out there just craving genitals and embarrassment. This has to be some kind of huge joke.’
There was a long silence.
Rooney cleared her throat. ‘I guess we’re not wank fantasy sisters.’
‘For fuck’s sake, Rooney.’
I don’t think this conversation had gone to a place that either of us were expecting it to.
I’d never fantasised about myself having sex. And that was different from most people. I was different. How had I never realised this before?
Picturing fanfic characters having sex? Great. Fine. Sexy. But picturing myself having sex with anyone, guy, girl, whoever, didn’t interest me.
No – it was more than that. It was an immediate fucking turn-off.
Was that what Sunil had told me about? Was that how he felt?
‘I don’t really know what to say or how to help,’ Rooney said. Then, with more sincerity than I was used to from Rooney, she followed up with, ‘Don’t do anything you don’t want to do, OK?’
‘… OK.’
‘I mean with Jason.’ She looked so serious all of a sudden, and I realised how rare it was for me to see an expression like that on Rooney’s face. ‘Just don’t do anything you’re not comfortable with. Please.’
‘Yeah. OK.’
Felipa Quintana
Hey, you sure you’re okay? This was a weird conversation Georgia Warr
i’m okay
sorry
this was weird
Felipa Quintana
I don’t mind!!! I love weird
I hope I helped??
Georgia Warr
you did
‘So … I guess this is properly a date, then,’ I said to Jason over our pancakes.
Our third date was at a pancake café. It was situated up a hill about a ten-minute walk out of Durham’s town centre and was so tiny that I felt claustrophobic. That was probably why I was so uncomfortable, I reasoned.