15“the eating of”： Ibid.
16“imparting genuine sympathy”： EP, PHL, 244.
17“She is diseased”： Ibid., 242.
18“I have wept”： EP, GD, 4:86.
19“In alleviating their”： EP, MK, 68.
20“hug me still”： EP, GD, 4:65.
21“When we suffered”： SO, MO, 72, in PHL, page 426 in PDF.
22“I always stand”： EP, GD, 1:157.
23“Mine was the”： EP, GD, 4:13.
24“even the sight”： EP, PHL, 145.
25“I must not”： Ibid., 288.
26“O, Dr. McFarland”： Ibid., 158.
27“I can live”： Ibid., 90.
28“aimless purpose”： EP, GD, 2:29.
29“an absolute essential”： AM, in Tenth Biennial Report, 26.
30“restraints and neglect”： Dr. John Conolly, quoted in Grob, “Institutional Origins,” 36.
31“so simple and”： AM, in “Seventh Biennial Report,” 311.
32“fully alive to” and following quotations: AM, in “Proceedings of the Fourteenth,” 64–65.
33“rarely found necessary”： Dr. Choate, in “Proceedings of the Twelfth,” 74–75.
34“from five to”： Ibid.
35“abused patients was”： EP, MP2, 225.
36“The working of”： EP, PHL, 125.
37“the journal of”： Ibid.
38“a secret journal”： EP, MPE, 99.
39“It shall be”： EP, PHL, 125.
CHAPTER 21
1“I put a”： EP, PHL, 120.
2“buy the privilege”： Ibid., 160.
3“the medium of”： EP, TE, 69.
4“I have had”： Mrs. P. L. Hosmer, “Mrs. P. L. Hosmer’s Letter to the Trustees,” September 1863, reproduced in Mrs. Packard’s Reproof, 29.
5“The pain I”： Mrs. Hosmer, letter to AM, Jan 1852 （？）， New Hampshire Asylum for the Insane, call no. 1979.008, series 4, box 1, folder 14, “Patient Corres. & Bills, 1852–54,” New Hampshire Historical Society, Concord, NH.
6“a man who”： Mrs. Hosmer, “Mrs. P. L. Hosmer’s Letter,” in Mrs. Packard’s Reproof, 29.
7“uninterrupted power”： Ibid.
8“The Doctor is”： Mrs. Hosmer, quoted by EP, PHL, 132.
9“tell facts of”： Ibid.
10“flesh creep”： Ibid.
11“I encircled this”： EP, ibid., 99.
12“the air in”： AM, in Tenth Biennial Report, 35.
13“the bad construction”： Ibid.
14“Holidays!”： Jacksonville Sentinel, December 21, 1860.
15“the mothers don’t”： EP, GD, 1:267.
16“The evils of”： EP, PHL, 125.
17“trusted my deliverance”： EP, TE, 71.
18“by my own”： Ibid.
19“Mrs. Packard”： Mrs. Hosmer, quoted by EP, ibid.
20“This period of”： EP, PHL, 125.
21“I must defend”： EP, GD, 1:128 [italics added].
22“The worst that”： EP, MPE, 69–70.
23“I can stand”： EP, GD, 1:252 [italics added].
24“I feel that”： EP, MPE, 70.
25“This Insane Asylum”： Ibid., 97.
26“For woman’s sake”： EP, PHL, 124–25.
27“My will and”： EP, GD, 2:122.
28“I am not”： Ibid., 1:355.
29“The fact is”： Ibid., 1:183.
30“Woman is too”： EP, GD, 2:279 [italics added].
PART THREE: MY PEN SHALL RAGE
EPIGRAPHS
1“A word after”： Margaret Atwood, “Spelling,” True Stories （New York: Simon & Schuster, 1981）， 64. Reproduced with permission of Curtis Brown Group Ltd, London, on behalf of Margaret Atwood. Copyright ? Margaret Atwood, 1982.
2“When I was”： Phebe B. Davis, Two Years and Three Months, in Geller and Harris, Women of the Asylum, 49.
CHAPTER 22
1“In the matter”： AM, letter to TP, April 3, 1862, in “The Question of Mrs. Packard’s Sanity,” Northampton Free Press, April 13, 1866.
2“By my experiences”： EP, PHL, 14.
3“smelted by”： EP, TE, 44.
4“thinking machine”： EP, GD, 2:20.
5“I never needed”： Ibid., 2:75.
6“hurricane-blast”： Ibid., 2:98.
7“humanity-crushing institution”： Ibid., 2:211.
8“a feeling of”： EP, PHL, 273.
9“extreme jealousy”： Diagnosis of the first patient admitted to the Illinois State Hospital, hospital admissions book, November 3, 1851, quoted in several sources, including Heather Harlan Bacus, “Old Buildings and Impaired Minds,” undated newspaper article but likely c. 1972; in Jacksonville State Hospital folder, Sangamon Valley Collection, Lincoln Library, Springfield, IL.